Im so fucken scared right now. I really dont know what do to wear to go. Im in love beyond in love but im scared to get hurt im scared for the same results. Its funny you put so much into something your life everything you could think of wakeless night dreaming thinking pondering what is next. Unchangable feelings, crushed, happy, joy. God is ( Read more... )

Ian Kriska Christmas list

1. i would like to be complemented and for someone to love me as much as i love them.
2. Respect is a big one.
3. I want a night of fun planed not by me or any complaints durring it.
4. i want  a hard case for my guitar
5. some movies and money lol

Yesterday thanx to someone started out to be the best day of my life because i finally got something i wanted. It was wonderful all day then that night things took a downward spiral and i was thrown with this unstopable wonder about things and whys i hate that lol oh well hopefully i can figure things out christmas i comen up did yea get all your ( Read more... )

maybe its time for me to just say fuck it. i mean everything needs to calm down let everything fall into place not worry about my house i mean if i fuck up and they dont pick up the slack then they are out to. My job well that isnt very hard. Relationships i dont no i uphold this moral of not cheating not lien being fun tryen to treat them to ( Read more... )

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things are so complicated right now i dont know what is what when it is happenen how they are happenene, im happy for breif moments, then scared worried, the thing about a an ulcer a major stress related incident such as divorce(relationship problems) death(family membors) loss of jobs or even midterm finals can make you bleed internally and you ( Read more... )

life just got alot worse! But what can yea do, no need to cry about it thanks for everything love yea guys

it would be nice if things got better, but someone used to tell me everything happens for a reason well im hear to say that is a crock of shit. things happen because we are scared to do what we want if its hard as americans we try to work around it and run like fucken cowards. I think we all need to start standing up for what we believe in because ( Read more... )

things have to look up soon right? I mean i got crushed twice in one week, well crushed disipointed and shocked, then monday roles around hard midterm stress all that good stuff. Well tuesday school then i get in a bad accident not fun( do get to by a new car now). Then wedsnday work then a two day trip to the hospital not fun expecially what i ( Read more... )

I should be studian right now but yea no what im excited who has a four Point Zero right now i do ask me how i dont know. got my poly scie grades and well my teacher obviously knows she is horrible i have a 94 woop woop..fuck everyone im going to go to work listen to my ipod and sleep. well if anyone wants to do something after words i mean watch a ( Read more... )