shame

[ouijabones]

I wish i could stop doing things i come to regret monstrously. I have to stop drinking. Last night I drank so much that I blacked out and missed half of the night, which apparently I spent behaving like an asshole idiot. I hid in the bushes in my front yard and refused to come out, sobbed hysterically and sat on carmen who was sleeping on the couch

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[punkrockpimp]

omg. zoe you drank? im sorry to hear about you regretting it. and i get that. but everyone does it at least once in their life, sober or not. im sorry i didnt make it to your party. i actually was planning on going. then feel asleep as soon as i got home. jeff even tried getting me up and i just yelled at him. lol. i work 13 hours that day, any ways i am going to give you a call this week and see if we can plan something.

[smilelikeair]

zoe i hope you're feeling alright now. i didnt really know what was going on until shortly before you came in. don't feel bad about waking me up though/sitting on me cause you really didn't. you are not stupid or an asshole idiot even if you feel you were acting that way. i just felt really sad about you crying hysterically and wanted you to be happy since it was your bday party. i wish i wouldve brought over the american dream cake and fed that to you instead of you sippin on some captain. you dont have to appologize for acting like an a-hole. hard liquor makes me cry too. we have to stop drinking that shiiit.

[ouijabones]

american dream cake makes everything better, i'm sure.

[frozen_barbie]

I remember the weekend of new years I got really drunk with some friends at my friend marni's house [she has a pool] and everyone was trying to get someone to jump into the pool because the water was so fucking cold. I said that I didn't want to because I had no other clothes, and this guy I barely knew kept telling me that it was ok just to take them off. I knew what he was doing and called him out on it, and he left.

I hate skeezbags that do shit like that -___-

[ouijabones]

exactly. it's just do disgusting to me, how some men take advantage of situations like that to basically show you that really they don't look at women as anything but a piece of meat to fuck.