Pay no attention to the girl sulking in the corner.

[our_heroine]

It's interesting to me how you can be put on a spiraling low point in your life by reading one thing, hearing one word, being given one look... just because it puts doubt inside of you as to whether or not you are really deserving of anything at all

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[lovekins]

you are not the one taking taking and never giving. you give happiness, and time and love to others. you are very sweet. i dont know if ive personally been around for it, but i can tell that if anyone was hurting, you would be the arm around their shoulder, you would make an attempt at the least to help them, or cheer them up. you care, because youve been down too, and somewhere inside you know that kind people dont deserve to hurt. dont worry hun, youre very nice, and very helpful. look you even made sean that great buisness card, youre always helping him with ideas. i try try try and try, i even pray for luck or ideas to come my way for sean. you gave him ideas, you helped him with the buisness card, those are things many people have tried at and tried at and failed. that was great of you to do. you are just a bit selfless somewhere. i think that can go with being a dancer =). give yourself some credit when you feel so low, and you will see you are a good person deserving of good things also.

[our_heroine]

I think when you get to these low point, you don't allow yourself to think you're a good person. It perpetuates your bad mood. At least with me... that's why I always need someone else to drag me out of it. So thank you, it helps.

I haven't danced in a while and I think it's causing a lot of frustration in my life. I think it has to do with the fact that dancing is a primal emotional outlet if you allow yourself to tap into without fear of embarrassing yourself. I miss it. I'm not sure if that shows I'm self-less or completely tapped into myself. =)

canoe

[ache_sp]

It's strange to me how things so disconnected, like me and everyone out in this livejournalandia, can still follow somewhat defined patterns. Now, this probably won't do much to cheer you up coming from some semi-random chap, sorry. I really am. But maybe it will. Anyway, back to what I was saying before I so rudely interrupted myself, thinking about my own strong emotional periods over the past few years, whether negative or positive, and relating my overall mood to the entries my friends were making in livejournal it seems to me that this blue feeling(I've got it right now too) may not really be all that personal. I don't know exactly what I mean by that, but I know writing seems to help and reading what's going on in other peoples minds helps as well. The negative just builds and builds until *POP* and it all comes spilling out onto the page and then I have nothing to write about until the pressure is too much again.

Re: canoe

[our_heroine]

Writing: it's like a form of ejaculation. lol

But seriously, you have a good point. Maybe it's just the time of year, like the inverse of the holiday blues. haha

Re: canoe

[ache_sp]

hahah couldn't have said it better.

You know what they say about the company we keep, why not the moods of our environments?
Hahah i read ALL of this and I shake my head in shame, shame of the hippieness of all this metaphysical crap I believe.
Ope, nevermind! It's quantum physics and that's a science, so I feel less hippie.