happy go lucky jared is no more. that is, unless i love you and you are here. or i am there. where you are. but dont expect to see me. unless you leave the places where foolish things matter, you wont find me. with people and other morons ive still constructed my own view of the world and i now seek a view unhazed and unblocked by cocksuckers with ( Read more... )

this music makes me hysterical. honestly.

i hate parades. i live on siskiyou and i have a right to hate parades. god its so loud. all of our windows are closed.. and i can hear this moron on the microphone. what is terrible is that the parade is starting in front of my house. and it has been sitting there all morning as they prepare. and i have to listen to the shitty marching band warm up ( Read more... )

this morning i played guitar in the tub. very early though the sun seemed as though it had been up for some time. we all got stoned in the comedown from the e, and it made us crazy. or atleast barbara jean and i ( Read more... )

ive had alot of mixed emotions about alot of things and people. a little confused but going with the flow. the confusion begins where im lost in my own little world of how things are to the point that i dont remember wether or not certain attitudes towards certain ideas or things people and places... my boundries smear, and my judgement is subject ( Read more... )

Naked Lunch has got to be the most horrific novel ever written(or read by me).

i cant believe i have nothing else to say.

[edit: june 29]

actually i think its pulp.
i fucking love pulp.

whats that? is it in ( Read more... )

i have spent the latter of the past two weeks of waiting looking for a job. yesterday and today, or since ive been expecting the results, i have slumped into a depression - the halt of my job hunting - sleeping in, smoking, frequently checking the mail and going out only to buy cigarettes. i feel half assed and exhausted, and cant work up the ( Read more... )

FUCKIN FUCK

i am dieting on my dead lip skin alone. and water of course. every diet needs water. im thinking of adding in lifesavers. that is all.