1000 Days - It seems silly to mark these anniversaries, but I suppose symbolically they're more important than ever now that we're an air ticket away from each other. Long distance relationships are supposed to be tough, as everyone's warned. Yet, the only hardships I've encountered are the pangs of a longing heart staring at the horizon and over ( Read more... )

I've been 30 all of three weeks now, and perhaps thankfully, it doesn't seem like such a landmark. I figure it'd be one of those big crisis days only if I felt my life was in drastic need of overhaul; and being the lucky son of a bitch I am, I'm feeling alright. As trite as it may sound, it feels like things are coming together. I feel like if I ( Read more... )

I hit the three year mark in Korea a few months ago, and I must say, this was never part of the plan. Actually, there never really was a plan, so I suppose it's quite fitting that I'm still here. I was 25 when I got here, and I really hadn't anything resembling a clue as to what I was doing with my life. Certainly, part of the impulse to come to ( Read more... )

it's been a long time.

one unanticipated reaction to the obama inauguration? "colored" resentment of the new president. i have certainly shared my sense of awe at the cult of personality developed around barack obama, and the seeming lack of critical perspective regarding his policies and ideas and the manner in which he hopes to - "save" - america. it's easy to be ( Read more... )

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of the time left - i died a little over a month ago. what appeared symptomatic persisted, solidified, normalized. can he be retrieved? what is dead can not be revived. but yet, perhaps it is not 'gil' i'm looking for, for that is now, that is now-existing and yet all too dead. i'm looking for that moment, that fleeting, transient moment, 'gil-in- ( Read more... )

thom yorke is saving my life as i type this.

i need a new idiom.

pathetic fallacy - winter is here. its taken some time to register, but finally, something feels tangible, something has arrived. maybe global warming will catch up to us, our situation, thaw the forming desolate glacial wasteland, and permit us an acre of life to cultivate and nourish. the acre is a deferral - it never comes except to come in the ( Read more... )