X.x fuck.
I wish this would stop. I think it has, but then it comes right back at a single word or glance or movement. x.x fuck.

Leesa's birthday is coming up! Are you having a party?

I'm trying to think of something amazing to make you for your birthday.... hrm.

>Take this quiz and find out how girly you are. (GUYS TOO) <--(not rly. do it if u want lol) Put x's beside each thing that's true. Each x that you put is one percent. Have fun ( Read more... )

Austin and I want to go home tomorrow. We might not be able to go home until Tuesday. Dad doesn't sound like he'll let us go. I need to go home. I am so homesick. The family dynamics here aren't good. I've cried at least once a day since wednesday because something happens that makes me want to go home so bad and I feel trapped ( Read more... )

HOLAH FUUUUUCKS ( Read more... )

So...My cousin and my grandparents are comeing down today. I haven't seen Candice in an eternity. x.x So I dunno how that's going to go. I'm probably going to end up telling her I'm gay, she's always talking about boys and hounding me about if I have a boyfriend or not. And she can't shut her mouth worth anything so it won't be long until our ( Read more... )

I feel better now.

I miss my friends...I'm trying not to be jealous that nick's hanging out with kel and meanwhile I can't even reach him. I'm such a jealous person. I'm afraid people will choose others over me. I think other people are better than me, and that people are friends with me becasue they can't find someone better. Or because they feel sorry for me. Which ( Read more... )

basics ( Read more... )

Being competitive is stupid. You'll always not be as good as someone else, and if you only can feel good about yourself is when you're doing better than someone else, you need to find yourself some self-love, man.

I realized that when i was being depressed becasue i wasn't better than my friends in SAT scores.

I got 1680.

I swear to god, the ONE time I seem slightly disappointed about money, someone pulls this whole fuckin guilt trip on me and does the whole, "i'm holier than thou because i NEVER complain about money". All I did was get a little pissed becasue my music player filled up, and i have nowhere NEAR all the music i want on it. And yeah, i was like, I wish ( Read more... )