detachedddd. why do i always feel like i'm in a transition, and never get where i'm going? that's life? since when?
hey, i want a little sugar in my bowl, too!

on the eve of it, with first-day jitters bouncing between my stomach to my lungs (and back again) i discovered a secret. the details of time and place don't matter here. what matters is our internalization of your only permanent view of the world, which is your own, and then that question you must answer every second of your life, "what should i do ( Read more... )

got their shit together and found my blood sample. my white blood cells are low, but fine. all i have to do is take a multivitamin, get more calcium, and gain 15-20 pounds.  (doubt i'll do that, but i'll meet them halfway at 10 ( Read more... )

i don't like that i don't know what to do with myself when i have free time. i'd like to think that i'm smart enough to use my time well without people telling me to. youth is no excuse for that, i know, but these weeks of stressless inactivity just lead to me drinking a lot and oversleeping and feeling like i'm wasting what i don't know i have.

i' ( Read more... )

I shall gather myself into myself again,
I shall take my scattered selves and make them one,
Fusing them into a polished crystal ball
Where I can see the moon and the flashing sun.

I shall sit like a sibyl, hour after hour intent,
Watching the future come and the present go,
And the little shifting pictures of people rushing
In restless self-importance to ( Read more... )

The first anti-Obama text message I got was a few hours before the election, and it read, "if obama wins lets wear black to mourn the loss of our country." I didn't think much of it, I mean, it could have not been meant for me, and it was from a number I deleted a long time ago because, quite simply,  the girl in question is a raging idiot. Then ( Read more... )

I will put Chaos into fourteen lines ( Read more... )

UL in spring '09 semester.
I beat my graduating class, and I'm going in as a sophomore.

Ashley:1 
The System:0

 i've found a room with a view ( Read more... )

Just when I think that I'm overwhelmed and one more thing is going to destroy me, one more thing happens.
I haven't been destroyed.
Any time that someone upsets me, I listen to Idiot Wind on repeat. No matter what the situation is, it works.

The worst place to be is in the middle. I'll let someone else fill that space.