kenny ( Read more... )

i made a realy realy big mistake this past weekend, words o not exist to describe how much i wish i could change it ( Read more... )

and the rejection just keeps on comeing, what a waste

and by waste i mean me

thank you rj for going to the movies with me, i needed to getout of my house really bad ( Read more... )

i keep telling myself i need to stop being such a cry baby, and stop complaing so much on here, but ive made 10 posts in a row with no comments which impplys no one reads anyway, so i can whine all i want ( Read more... )

im starting to notice a paturn in poeple now n days, everyone is getting sick, physicaly and mentaly. i want it to stop soon

i think im still in my nightmare, only instead of shock followd by shock, im suspended in a state of lonely boredom, where the poeple that usualy cheer me up are unaccesable and im left wanting to drain all the negetive feelings out of my body again, grrr, half of me just wants to hear that someone cares, adn the other half wants to have no one ( Read more... )

so i go back and read my journal and i think to myself

why do i have friends lol

and realise that im very lucky to have the people that i do in my life

and i stop worrying about all the insignificant shit in my life and just count my blessings

i love all of you so much

xoxo
<3
sarah

last night i spent wondering wether i was asleep or awake, dead or alive, or if i was just haucinating ( Read more... )

why am i so childish ( Read more... )