I'm broken

[oviparous]

So today at my friend's place I said hi to a toddler, and he was stepping on a remote control and was about to lose his balance so I held him upright, then he came to sit in my lap.

I was like :DDD and anticipated the warm fuzzies but THEY NEVER CAMELast week on Shiyagare Nino was talking about how, when he got hugged by a kid, he realised what he

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[rikke_leonhart]

I won't tell you not to feel guilty

[oviparous]

dude, thank you for this. i love you, you have no idea how much, but i do

[oviparous]

(comment actually went over the limit HAHA)

So I've told you about my entire family and it seems like they're very supportive, right? THEY ARE. But I can't help thinking of the bigger picture because I'm stupid like that, I took a personality test and I'm ENFJ, and I just want people to be happy. My dad, my mum, my friends.

People--especially these Asian Christians in my social circle, lol--can be really curious. But at the end of the day, while it's cool that we share the same faith and are all brothers and sisters in Christ and all that, I don't think that gives anyone a right to poke into someone else's business. The Bible never said a married couple must have children. And I don't think our motives for not having children are selfish or sinful, so.

So far I've only had one encounter that left me confused, but everyone else has been rather kind. That said, because I've been so public about my miscarriage, I think everyone just assumes 'Oh, Lydia's still hung up on that, she's an emotional mess', BUT I'M NOT. I just lack the

[i_am_zan]

I love you so much whether or not you have or not/want or not the children thing.

*LOVES*

[oviparous]

I KNOW YOU DO!!! LOVE YOU BAAAAACK