my heart.
new breed.
day 1. autograph session - apr 28th 2012 - garden plaza @ IMM 7.30pm
queued early in the morning, got into the most front row (except behind the 5 priority winners, but i could see so fucking clearly he was about 2m away). he performed KYN, such swag. but seemed tired. ahken's lame jokes helped lift the mood up a bit. talked for a bit, then it was time for group photo. it didnt take long before our turn came.
when i went on the stage.... it was like everything else stopped. all i could see was him, but it was like my eyes had a sudden layer of fog. i saw him, but i couldnt see properly. everyone was shaking hands with him before the photo, and i grabbed my chance to shake his hand. it was warm, smoother than i'd thought (bboy blisters no? loads of handcream prob lol), but the most noticeable thing was the warmth. or maybe it's bc i had been queuing for hours and my hand's cold, but whatever, HIS HAND WAS WARM.
then as usual, everyone wanted to stand beside him for the photo. i tried to, but there was already someone. so i stood at the end (with 1 fan in between me and him). then another fan came and sort of shoved me aside further from him. i couldnt do anything, so i decided i'd rather go behind him and slobber all my drool over his back than stand so far away from him. so i did, and WHOOSH, i was right behind him. he was probably 1-2cm taller than me, and i could fucking see his jwalkerz tattoo so clearly. i contemplated on snapping a secret shot of his back, i mean it was right in front of my nose. but thought the better of it in case i got chased out (no photography allowed on stage). then while more fans got on stage (10 ppl per group shot) and i was attempting to cover my drool.........
HE MOVED BACK.
(to make space for more fans).
which means......... he. was. right. beside. me.
then, all i could think of was "OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG". but he hadnt noticed i was beside him yet, and he was stretching his arms out for the pose and his elbows hit my shoulder. then he looked at me, and said sorry. and then, he put his hand on my back.
..........................
..............
my fucking back. my back. my back. it was like flames suddenly erupted from his hands and were singing that part of my back. my back. my back. did i mention he put his hand on my back? YES, MY BACK. all i could do was attempt a weak smile while getting photographed, with his hand on my back.
immediately after it ended, i turned to him and bowed thank you. i could feel the flush in my face when he turned towards me and bowed with a slight smile. all i could think of, "oh. my. fucking. god."
then we were ushered down the stage to wait for another half-an-hour for the autograph session. it was pretty quick, and there were a lot of restrictions (no camera, no handshake, no requesting for name to be written down...) yeah. the policy was for him to sign on the "special asian version" of the album, but i couldnt care less and brought by korean album instead (DUH). his manager raised his eyebrows when he took my album, and i just said "it's the korean one." and he was like "ooohhhhhh" with a slight hint of satisfaction and approval HAHAHAHAHAHA. anyway, when i was finally in front of him again....
i was fucking tongue-tied. kept my mouth shut throughout the entire 10 seconds he took to sign my album. i tried to squeeze some sentence in, but my mind was a complete blank. before i knew it, time's up and he handed me my album back and looked at me, and thanked me for coming (he does that to every fan, what a fucking sweetheart.) before i could do anything else, the guard already hurried me down the stage. bummer.
all in all, that was the day where i had the most contact with him. my feelings... ;~;
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day 2. showcase - apr 29th 2012 - st. james power station @ dragonfly 3.30pm
had to reach even earlier (8am-ish) bec cheryl told me the queue was getting long. was alright but it got unbelievably hot in the noon and there was no shelter. ended up with the sunburnt but damn it was worth it.
finally when we went in, the aircon soothed our burns. and i was standing pretty squeezily against the others, but it was manageable. and i was at the front again, probably 2m+ away from the stage. ahken came on to begin the event, and then jay came on while singing NOY.
then... BAM. it was like deja vu. the first time i saw him in real life in wavehouse sentosa... in 2010.... and he came out wearing a similar all-white blazer singing the melodious notes in the beginning of the song...
fans screamed. i didnt, i was too focused on him. this time, i wanted to make sure my brain and eyes were clear enough to take in all of him. i stared, and stared, and stared at him. the mood was pretty low at first, but he hyped it up in the middle with "put ur hands up! a little louder!" and pointing the mike towards us to finish his lyrics.
then one of the funniest things happened.
he started coming closer to our side. the fans literally belted at the top of their lungs, and a few reached out their hands towards him, literally begging him to hold theirs. i couldnt see their expressions, but it must have looked pretty scary. because he forgot his lyrics.
so fucking funny. it was like, the moment he saw those fans, he kena stunned and forgot his lyrics!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. all of us laughed while he tried to make it up with a sheepish smile, and continued singing. oh precious, so precious.
after he ended the song, he did a short intro, like HELLO SINGAPOREEEEEEEEEE and made us scream. then he proceeded to perform a few songs from new breed. "i got ur back" (which was one of my least favorites but who cares right he's actually in front of me!!!! lol fuck me.) and "know your name" where that racy duet with jihye always made us scream. he also sang "up and down" with the slick dance moves, and "star" with those coaxing voice of his like honey...
there was also several interaction segments in between. one of them was the zombie face-painting contests where 5 contestants painted their face ala ricoboy-style and danced the chorus for KYN. then clever dj ahken asked if he could dance with all of them together. then the funny part starts:
he began getting really naggy and was like, "okay. how many people do we have? 5? 6? oh no, we have 5. okay. you go here. we have to get into a v-shape. v-shape. V-SHAPE!!!!!" at that point we were all laughing like hell while they got into position. it was so adorable seeing him like that! then the music started and all of them danced, and he looked especially comfortable on the stage and inserted some free-style swagger moves which left us all ahhh~~~~~~~~
the next interaction segment was the funniest part of the showcase. ahken decided to teach him how to pick up girls in Singlish, "WAH, CHIO!" then jay learned to say it and he said it in the most hilarious way ever. he was like, "WAHH!!!!!!! CHIO!!!!!!!!!!!" while holding out his hands like the Y U NO tumblr guy OMG SO FUCKING FUNNY HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. then ahken told him to act it out like it was in real life situation. then he said, "oh you know in real life clubbing it would be a lil bit noisy...." THEN HE STARTED BEATBOXING IT DROVE US ALL WILD. AND THEN HE DID THE FUCKING EXAGGERATING "WAHH!!! CHIO!!!!!" again together with the hilarious hand gestures. omg. how can this boy be so fucking lovable.
the next one was his birthday segment. a fan brought a set of birthday cupcakes for him, and it was so cute when he blew it out he raised his chest like an excited kid and blew the candles out! then ahken made him make a wish and as usual he did the diplomatic stuff "my wish is already fulfilled, i'm already in singaporeeeeeeeeee!" hahahaha we know he wants to please the fans BUT HOW CUTE CAN HE GET ;A;
brain fading omg i cant rmb what else.
OH OH. ahken tried to make him show his abs! then ahken kept joking his own is "pudding" while jay's is "chocolate" hahaha and they exchanged lame jokes on the stage about abs and fats. and finally, jay showed us his fine chocolates. ;)
okay then it was finally ending (just in 45min so the fans were super sad) then we began shouting ENCORE ENCORE ENCORE and he came back out with girlfriend!!!! there was something significantly different when he came out bc he looked so much happier! like a little kid getting to perform on his own stage! he smiled a lot and jumped, twirled, flipped while singing. AND HE SURPRISED US WITH A BBOY SEGMENT AT THE END HOMG MY HEART. did short windmill, baby freeze and other bboy stuffs and all of us were just going crazy with his fanservices. then it finally ended.
but for us golden ticket holders, not yet! we still had the autograph session (again lol omg the number of new breed albums i have.) this time i kept telling myself it's probably my last chance to talk to him, and i thought hard of what to say. i really didnt know, all i could say was "i love your songs" or "thank you so much" but that would sound cheesy.
in the end, while i stood face-to-face with him again, i said: "thank you for your music, jay."
ok. fuck. i meant for it to sound sincere, or earnest, or at least sound kind of "nice". but it came out rushed and super high-pitched. when i finished saying the stupid shit, he was still signing my album, and didnt look up. there was about 1.5 second of complete silence and i began to wonder if he didnt hear me and i was about to kill myself right there for looking/sounding so stupid. i thought i wasnt expecting a reply and just decided to stare at him tongue-tied again when he looked up, smiled at me and said...
"oh no no, thank you for coming. thank you so much for supporting my music."
SOBS. MY FACE FLUSHED AGAIN. i just bowed, took the album (actually it probably seemed like i was snatching the album from his hands. because the staff was actually already trying to pick up the album from him and give it to me, but i grabbed the album directly from him LOLOLOLOL) and stalked off the stage. looked back at him from below the stage, then got hurried away by the bouncers.
sigh. it was a really stupid thing to tell him, but i really really do appreciate his music.
:') jay. i fucking love you. to death.
by the end of it all i began to feel the excruciating ache in my legs and dehydration. oh well, it was all worth it. so damn worth it.
thank you so much mjxcheryl. without you i wouldnt have had this great chance of seeing him and getting to interact with him so close in real life. thank you so much for these 2 days omg it was a great time queuing with you ahahhaha you're so damn pro at this hahaha. :'D
that concludes my fanacc. photos on my fb and too lazy to upload all my fancams will probably upload them over the next week. but i already uploaded my favourite segment, the WAH!!! CHIO!!!! one omg he totally looks like an ah pek doing those gestures omg omg omg i fucking love you jay!!!!!!
now its time for withdrawals. imma be emo for the next few days. gonna miss you so bad.
day 1. autograph session - apr 28th 2012 - garden plaza @ IMM 7.30pm
queued early in the morning, got into the most front row (except behind the 5 priority winners, but i could see so fucking clearly he was about 2m away). he performed KYN, such swag. but seemed tired. ahken's lame jokes helped lift the mood up a bit. talked for a bit, then it was time for group photo. it didnt take long before our turn came.
when i went on the stage.... it was like everything else stopped. all i could see was him, but it was like my eyes had a sudden layer of fog. i saw him, but i couldnt see properly. everyone was shaking hands with him before the photo, and i grabbed my chance to shake his hand. it was warm, smoother than i'd thought (bboy blisters no? loads of handcream prob lol), but the most noticeable thing was the warmth. or maybe it's bc i had been queuing for hours and my hand's cold, but whatever, HIS HAND WAS WARM.
then as usual, everyone wanted to stand beside him for the photo. i tried to, but there was already someone. so i stood at the end (with 1 fan in between me and him). then another fan came and sort of shoved me aside further from him. i couldnt do anything, so i decided i'd rather go behind him and slobber all my drool over his back than stand so far away from him. so i did, and WHOOSH, i was right behind him. he was probably 1-2cm taller than me, and i could fucking see his jwalkerz tattoo so clearly. i contemplated on snapping a secret shot of his back, i mean it was right in front of my nose. but thought the better of it in case i got chased out (no photography allowed on stage). then while more fans got on stage (10 ppl per group shot) and i was attempting to cover my drool.........
HE MOVED BACK.
(to make space for more fans).
which means......... he. was. right. beside. me.
then, all i could think of was "OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG". but he hadnt noticed i was beside him yet, and he was stretching his arms out for the pose and his elbows hit my shoulder. then he looked at me, and said sorry. and then, he put his hand on my back.
..........................
..............
my fucking back. my back. my back. it was like flames suddenly erupted from his hands and were singing that part of my back. my back. my back. did i mention he put his hand on my back? YES, MY BACK. all i could do was attempt a weak smile while getting photographed, with his hand on my back.
immediately after it ended, i turned to him and bowed thank you. i could feel the flush in my face when he turned towards me and bowed with a slight smile. all i could think of, "oh. my. fucking. god."
then we were ushered down the stage to wait for another half-an-hour for the autograph session. it was pretty quick, and there were a lot of restrictions (no camera, no handshake, no requesting for name to be written down...) yeah. the policy was for him to sign on the "special asian version" of the album, but i couldnt care less and brought by korean album instead (DUH). his manager raised his eyebrows when he took my album, and i just said "it's the korean one." and he was like "ooohhhhhh" with a slight hint of satisfaction and approval HAHAHAHAHAHA. anyway, when i was finally in front of him again....
i was fucking tongue-tied. kept my mouth shut throughout the entire 10 seconds he took to sign my album. i tried to squeeze some sentence in, but my mind was a complete blank. before i knew it, time's up and he handed me my album back and looked at me, and thanked me for coming (he does that to every fan, what a fucking sweetheart.) before i could do anything else, the guard already hurried me down the stage. bummer.
all in all, that was the day where i had the most contact with him. my feelings... ;~;
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day 2. showcase - apr 29th 2012 - st. james power station @ dragonfly 3.30pm
had to reach even earlier (8am-ish) bec cheryl told me the queue was getting long. was alright but it got unbelievably hot in the noon and there was no shelter. ended up with the sunburnt but damn it was worth it.
finally when we went in, the aircon soothed our burns. and i was standing pretty squeezily against the others, but it was manageable. and i was at the front again, probably 2m+ away from the stage. ahken came on to begin the event, and then jay came on while singing NOY.
then... BAM. it was like deja vu. the first time i saw him in real life in wavehouse sentosa... in 2010.... and he came out wearing a similar all-white blazer singing the melodious notes in the beginning of the song...
fans screamed. i didnt, i was too focused on him. this time, i wanted to make sure my brain and eyes were clear enough to take in all of him. i stared, and stared, and stared at him. the mood was pretty low at first, but he hyped it up in the middle with "put ur hands up! a little louder!" and pointing the mike towards us to finish his lyrics.
then one of the funniest things happened.
he started coming closer to our side. the fans literally belted at the top of their lungs, and a few reached out their hands towards him, literally begging him to hold theirs. i couldnt see their expressions, but it must have looked pretty scary. because he forgot his lyrics.
so fucking funny. it was like, the moment he saw those fans, he kena stunned and forgot his lyrics!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. all of us laughed while he tried to make it up with a sheepish smile, and continued singing. oh precious, so precious.
after he ended the song, he did a short intro, like HELLO SINGAPOREEEEEEEEEE and made us scream. then he proceeded to perform a few songs from new breed. "i got ur back" (which was one of my least favorites but who cares right he's actually in front of me!!!! lol fuck me.) and "know your name" where that racy duet with jihye always made us scream. he also sang "up and down" with the slick dance moves, and "star" with those coaxing voice of his like honey...
there was also several interaction segments in between. one of them was the zombie face-painting contests where 5 contestants painted their face ala ricoboy-style and danced the chorus for KYN. then clever dj ahken asked if he could dance with all of them together. then the funny part starts:
he began getting really naggy and was like, "okay. how many people do we have? 5? 6? oh no, we have 5. okay. you go here. we have to get into a v-shape. v-shape. V-SHAPE!!!!!" at that point we were all laughing like hell while they got into position. it was so adorable seeing him like that! then the music started and all of them danced, and he looked especially comfortable on the stage and inserted some free-style swagger moves which left us all ahhh~~~~~~~~
the next interaction segment was the funniest part of the showcase. ahken decided to teach him how to pick up girls in Singlish, "WAH, CHIO!" then jay learned to say it and he said it in the most hilarious way ever. he was like, "WAHH!!!!!!! CHIO!!!!!!!!!!!" while holding out his hands like the Y U NO tumblr guy OMG SO FUCKING FUNNY HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. then ahken told him to act it out like it was in real life situation. then he said, "oh you know in real life clubbing it would be a lil bit noisy...." THEN HE STARTED BEATBOXING IT DROVE US ALL WILD. AND THEN HE DID THE FUCKING EXAGGERATING "WAHH!!! CHIO!!!!!" again together with the hilarious hand gestures. omg. how can this boy be so fucking lovable.
the next one was his birthday segment. a fan brought a set of birthday cupcakes for him, and it was so cute when he blew it out he raised his chest like an excited kid and blew the candles out! then ahken made him make a wish and as usual he did the diplomatic stuff "my wish is already fulfilled, i'm already in singaporeeeeeeeeee!" hahahaha we know he wants to please the fans BUT HOW CUTE CAN HE GET ;A;
brain fading omg i cant rmb what else.
OH OH. ahken tried to make him show his abs! then ahken kept joking his own is "pudding" while jay's is "chocolate" hahaha and they exchanged lame jokes on the stage about abs and fats. and finally, jay showed us his fine chocolates. ;)
okay then it was finally ending (just in 45min so the fans were super sad) then we began shouting ENCORE ENCORE ENCORE and he came back out with girlfriend!!!! there was something significantly different when he came out bc he looked so much happier! like a little kid getting to perform on his own stage! he smiled a lot and jumped, twirled, flipped while singing. AND HE SURPRISED US WITH A BBOY SEGMENT AT THE END HOMG MY HEART. did short windmill, baby freeze and other bboy stuffs and all of us were just going crazy with his fanservices. then it finally ended.
but for us golden ticket holders, not yet! we still had the autograph session (again lol omg the number of new breed albums i have.) this time i kept telling myself it's probably my last chance to talk to him, and i thought hard of what to say. i really didnt know, all i could say was "i love your songs" or "thank you so much" but that would sound cheesy.
in the end, while i stood face-to-face with him again, i said: "thank you for your music, jay."
ok. fuck. i meant for it to sound sincere, or earnest, or at least sound kind of "nice". but it came out rushed and super high-pitched. when i finished saying the stupid shit, he was still signing my album, and didnt look up. there was about 1.5 second of complete silence and i began to wonder if he didnt hear me and i was about to kill myself right there for looking/sounding so stupid. i thought i wasnt expecting a reply and just decided to stare at him tongue-tied again when he looked up, smiled at me and said...
"oh no no, thank you for coming. thank you so much for supporting my music."
SOBS. MY FACE FLUSHED AGAIN. i just bowed, took the album (actually it probably seemed like i was snatching the album from his hands. because the staff was actually already trying to pick up the album from him and give it to me, but i grabbed the album directly from him LOLOLOLOL) and stalked off the stage. looked back at him from below the stage, then got hurried away by the bouncers.
sigh. it was a really stupid thing to tell him, but i really really do appreciate his music.
:') jay. i fucking love you. to death.
by the end of it all i began to feel the excruciating ache in my legs and dehydration. oh well, it was all worth it. so damn worth it.
thank you so much mjxcheryl. without you i wouldnt have had this great chance of seeing him and getting to interact with him so close in real life. thank you so much for these 2 days omg it was a great time queuing with you ahahhaha you're so damn pro at this hahaha. :'D
that concludes my fanacc. photos on my fb and too lazy to upload all my fancams will probably upload them over the next week. but i already uploaded my favourite segment, the WAH!!! CHIO!!!! one omg he totally looks like an ah pek doing those gestures omg omg omg i fucking love you jay!!!!!!
now its time for withdrawals. imma be emo for the next few days. gonna miss you so bad.