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Do you rellie think I would kiss you now? YES. I am trying hard to get a word out of you, but with a mouth like that who would ever come close to it?
If you werent acting foolish and immature you would just pull me aside and try to talk to me like a fucking adult, since you havent even come close to trying, I see you now as a child. And a child you sure are. I punched a wall today a bruised all my knuckles, and why do you ask? Well I didnt, I lied. Thats the first time I have ever lied to you. I dont pull myself down to stupid acts trying to get attention.
If you dont get it by now, I'll ellaborate...
You don't seem to be choking on anything your saying at all, it's comming out clearly. Fuck You. Fuck Him, and there is noone else. I expected nothing to come out of what I did from the moment it happened. It was over an effing year ago, get over it. Why hold gurdges...isn't life short enough? I never lied to your face, come to think of it...I never lied to you at all. You never asked, so I didn't not give you the information. And to add the the chaos, your right, I'm not sorry. If I even thouught that I was going to be sorry, I would never even have thought of it, not that it was thought out of course. I was just a partner in the crime. We are both guilty here, and no, unlike your concited thoughts, "we" does not imply YOU at all. Don't go and speak for me, because apparentlly you dont know me either. I have never once denied what I did, not ever. People asked me what I did, I said plain out to them in black and white what my foolish behavior got me. And again your right, I am not who I think I am, I am just descorving my self. And if you dont like it, you are just going to have to deal. Because you don't know who you are either, whether you realize that or not. We all know you are used to getting your ways about everything, but this time you just can't. Welcome to the real world. This is very stupid, again I agree, but it could be so much fucking EASIER if you would just open your eyes. Not everyone is 'out to get you', stop being so damn paranoid. Don't you talk to me about liars...you just contradicting yourself. You are a very lucky girl, you had some one who fucked up and as much asb they are scarred would stand there and take every harsh thing you had to say to them, but you can't do it. You can't turn around and put out the exact same thing that other people have given to you. You fucking coward. You can't even look me straight in the goddam eye in the fucking hallway. Who's being childish now? But I shouldnt be lowering my self to your level. Look at this, the only way you will communicate with me is in a goddamn LIVEJOURNAL. Do you have any IDEA how CHILDISH that is?? But you will always be lower than me, at least I am adult enough to try and correct my wrongs. I know that I can't take them back but I can sure as hell try to mend them. Now I know that I have just been wasting my breath on a waste, ever since the first time I didn't trust you. I should have never come back to you, oops my mistake. I hope you drown in your sorrows, and I am glad I hurt you. Someone needed to give you a blast of REALITY. You needed it. And my final words to you: Your not the first, you'll never be the last, don't give yourself such a great title Try and make something out of yourself or die trying. Edited by Laura