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So Summer is here...
Angela's three year anniversary since she passed came and went... I didn't even go to the cemetary... I've never felt so down on myself... I was selfish and I hung out with my friends... I went to the rez and then to Jeff Wilsons house... I stayed out too late and I was almost an hour late coming home... My parents were out driving around looking for me.. I never felt like so much of an asshole in my life... Ive been grounded since that day... As much as I hate being grounded I can understand, Chris was out driving around looking for me, they were afraid I was dead on the side of the road I guess I don't blame their behavior It was her day
Her birthday is tomorrow She would be five, I cannot imagine what she would look like... She was the most beautiful baby, Emmy looks JUST like her, So I guess I can watch Angela grow up in Emmy I miss her a lot More then I ever thought I would It is getting easier As each year goes by I get stronger, I will never forget her or the memories I have of her I have to go the cemetary tomorrow I feel like such a jerk for not going on her anniversary I need to stop beating myself up over it
On a happier note, I started going out with Steve, never thought that would happen I guess that I am happy it did He makes me giggle and I make him happy too I wish this relationship good luck I learned a lot from my last one and Billy and I have stayed close and will continue to stay close Im not going to lose him He has become my best friend over the last two years I cant completely cut ties with him It'd be ludacris
Ive depended on Tara so much lately Thankgod that girl is here for me, I love her to death Shes one of the best friends I have ever had... Ive drifted so much from my other friends that Im happy I have her by my side... I miss everyone else a lot I need to put more of an effort into those relationships I have no excuse anymore When Im off grounding Im going to get out with them Im seeing Richie Thursday which has made me really happy I miss that boy, Im trying as hard as I can to bring back what I lost Its just taking some time...
Other then that my summer has been good so far, Ive gotten out a bit and met some new people, Im giving a lot of people a chance and making new friendships also I like it