I… Hate….Everyone? I did…twenty minutes ago and an hour ago and all day. I spent the whole day avoiding faces (his) and fighting back tears and lying about how okay I am (always more than the truth- which is barley breathing). Then I came home (after crying in bed, hiding under the covers, wishing for old times back again) and of all people, IMed ( Read more... )

Before School- No Mari. I don’t think we’re talking. Oh well. Chris came and “shook his tail feather” in my face. Then I went to the library to print our pictures of Pete for Cherche. (There’s an accent on the last e there, you just can’t see it and I’m not magic enough to make it appear. I was never magic… People are such liars.) ((Mental note: I ( Read more... )

I wrote this last night. It's pretty much all I have to say about today and how I feel and everything. Lauren wants me to submit it to Colliapie (I already submitted 3 poem things) so I typed up Kaleigh's note like this, and maybe I will. Note that Len and Marcus arn't the real names. It was easier on everyone this way. If you know me, I'm sure you ( Read more... )

I don’t make mistakes. It’s all crashed down around me. This mess that I’ve made, this mess that I’ve HAD. I just hid it behind Chris. (This isn’t about Chris; this has nothing to do with Chris.) With him not standing in front of me, hiding all things I hate (I swore I wouldn’t do this) now all I have is this truth. I’ve made this huge mess and how ( Read more... )

Chris and I broke up. I find this funny… I don’t know why. But really, I’m okay with it. I mean, everyone was right. I can do better than him and he is a jerk. He never called me pretty and MIKE who I HATED and who HATED ME for ALMOST ALL of our “friendship” knew my phone number by heart and called twenty times more and WE NEVER WENT OUT. I always ( Read more... )

ryan just imed me. ryan from st. joes. who went out with lauren. (laugh) that was so random (randumn)... i havent seen that kid since he lauren and i went to the mall- no! fuds on st. joes night. wow... last year man.... crazyness. had to share that little trip down memory lane with you ( Read more... )

So...Valentines Day ( Read more... )

"I wasn't ignoring you before, I was away ( Read more... )

You know what I thought about yesterday ( Read more... )

wanna know a secret? /he was only using you to get to me/ ten dollars says he goes on with the wedding/ thinking i'm going to object /well congratulations i hope you're happy together

Everyone knows the story/ Boy loves girl. Girl loves boy/ But when the story's so genaric/ and everyone's name is Boy and Girl/ how do you know which one's which/ ( Read more... )