my parents yelled so much the other day, so loud for so long. my fresh make up melted down my face and that pissed me off but not nearly as much as them yelling so much. it pissed me off because i wasn't being aggressive and couldnt figure out why i was even being yelled at. i tried a couple times and that didn't work. 5 minutes after i walked ( Read more... )

i used to be somewhat attractive even though i never believed it, now i am in love and unattractive again, and this is not fair. so this is going to end. and i'm exercising, and it's started before new years so its not a resolution to break, it's a way of life. no more oprah style gain and lose lose and gain. i'm an adult now, so i'll just be ( Read more... )

i have been studying for a class that i have been failing. at least, i know i'm failing yet it says i am not but i know i am. adam is leaving for cairo the day after our last exam. he will be leaving the 23 and so will i, to drive home alone in lousy traffic probably crying because i will miss him very much. it's become somewhat ridiculous to me ( Read more... )

i wish he'd never close his eyes or look away. i want to see that until i'm done. looking into his pupils i feel something past them, if i was not allowed to look into these eyes like this, i'd be haunted of that hazy intense draw. this feels heavier than i can handle but i rather be crushed and ride this for as long as i can. and that is something ( Read more... )

let's see...
i predict marriage.

avenge unicorn
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i lost my mind on saturday and thought it would never come back, my actions were animal, wandering, without wanting to eat and just bouncing off and thoughts erratic and short. i fell into my couch and saw purple servants in my castle room high up in a purple sky. tripping is....who was the first person to eat those mushrooms and feel like they ( Read more... )

i am here in my apartment now and i am living away from my parents and im in charge of my diet. so i eat a lot of cottage cheese with strawberry preserves. i eat a lot of bananas. and i eat a lot of carrots with hummus. we never feel like making anything, and i dont think of anything i'd want to eat that i could make ( Read more... )

he asked me if i would go to london with him over thanksgiving break. the trip there, the place we will stay at will be paid for, i just need to bring spending money for stupid shit ( Read more... )

sometimes i will wonder what made me get sick so quickly, how i didn't realize what i was doing to myself, how there was no physical pain that girls complain about, but then i felt aware of it last night, that fullness that fills me when i'm just that low all the time. that every glance in alluminum glass is a stone swallowed. and i feel full but ( Read more... )