Well. here it all is, for anyone who REALLY cares.......

[oz17]

The other day someone asked me why i had been so anti-social with my group of friendsm why i hadn't called people to hang out, why i didn't really WANT to talk to any of them? SO i thought about why I didn't WANT to do any of those things, and then i came to this conclusion: My "Friends" suck. My closets "friends" left me hi and dry like 6 months

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[cheeks_so_rosy]

see, i never saw it as you fending for yourself, i thought being with me meant i was there with you... im sorry, i really am.

[chickenpickle]

I know we didn't hang out as much as you and the people you're referring to in that entry do but just know that I'm one of your good friends that I hope you can trust me with whatever you need to talk about. Lol goddamn Josh I've been trying to get a hold of you for the past week to make plans! Haha.

But seriously, even though we don't see each other sometimes for weeks at a time, I still do consider you one of my very good friends. I don't know if that is how you would consider our relationship but, that's the label I would put on it.

And people who are like that to you...who you hung out with all the time and who just start to wander away..and ignore you like that at your birthday party (which I wasn't invited to but had I been invited, I would've been there! [I called you on your {because I didn't forget} birthday but you didn't answer]) aren't really your true friends. Because that is just shitty.

[blackfairy44]

jeezums.
i don't even know where to being. i'm at a lost for word.
i really didn't know things had gotten this crappy.
me and linds don't leave u aside. i always ask what your doing, and its always made out like you have something to do. so i drop it there.
i should have put more into getting you to hang out with your not there
jeezum
i'm sorry
i don't know what else to say

[saigonokosetsu]

I really am sorry too. I had no idea it was getting like that.
I dont know what to say.
I was meaning to call you but I had to work a lot these past 2 weeks. But that's still no excuse....

I really am sorry.

Iknew this would happen...

[yami_xain]

I realize that we haven't been spending as much time togeather as we used to but it has been that way since we had no classes together, but that really isn't why I am commenting here. I can understand why you feel the way you do, but you definately making some harsh conclusions here. I know your scared and it's tough, but when you go blaming people for not reacting to it as you see fit, I don't think thats fair at all - How would one react to something as terrible as your best friend's life on the line, I certainly have never had to deal w/ something that tragic, and I've been trying to handle it logically. All you can do is wait, and depend on your doctors. You must do what you can to halt the progress of it. You may be angry but just plain pissed but don't just give up as you seemingly are, it shows just how much lack of faith you have for your friends. I've been worried about you - ask any one of the group, I've been saying whats up with Josh? Frankly, I too felt disconnected from you and it is that chasm that made it so awkward