Comments | oz_the_bobble: Am bored.

oz_the_bobble

Am bored.

Aug 03, 2009 17:38

Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me about your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me about what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list, and tell me why you continue ( Read more... )

high school musicaaaaal, meme

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anonymous August 3 2009, 16:40:58 UTC

i like you

all the time

oz_the_bobble August 3 2009, 16:42:42 UTC

I like you too, anon.

Even when I'm singing?

anonymous August 3 2009, 16:50:18 UTC

I AM ABOUT THIS > < CLOSE TO PUNCHING MY LITTLE SISTER IN THE FACE.

JUST, ARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHH.

Is it September yet?

oz_the_bobble August 3 2009, 18:50:30 UTC

I'm counting down the days too.

Just remember to breathe, and take the moral high ground. Maybe she'll be freaked out by overt niceness. Keep her on her toes, guessing what you're going to do next.

anonymous August 3 2009, 17:19:01 UTC

I feel so lonely, that none of my friends really like me.

But then most of the time I hate me, so I can understand why no one else likes me all that much.

Sometimes I wonder if I would be missed at all if I wasn't here. I doubt it would be noticed.

I feel empty and unloved and know I'm going to end up sad and alone.

But other than that life's just peachy. Also am mesmerised by your icon, and now wanting a High School Musical fest of my very own.

oz_the_bobble August 3 2009, 19:13:15 UTC

I don't know how to say this without sounding cliched, and inadequate. But I feel for you, so much. I was totally where you are, about a year ago. *hugs* If you're on my flist, there has to be something good in you. And maybe you haven't found them, but there's bound to be people out there who like you for you.

Oh, I fail.

A High School Musical fest is a very good idea. (In a sad, sad way, HSM helped me. Ryan made me feel fabulous about myself.)

anonymous August 3 2009, 18:35:06 UTC

I have real problems believing that people actually like me. I have a few really good friends, but I constantly think that they will one day realise they don't like me and that'll be it. I worry about pushing them too far, or fighting, and making them pull away from me.

So, yeah. I don't have much in the way of self confidence, which doesn't help online friendships either. I constantly feel as though they just reply/chat to me to be polite, but really they don't care. I worry an unanswered text means they are bored with me.

This might be thanks to the friends I had in school who were mocking me behind my back, even if not as much as I thought at the time. When fights did mean the end of friendships.

BUT! I am trying to get past this. I want to trust in my friends and be confident, and I think I'm getting better. And I am happy, mostly, so it can't be all bad :D

oz_the_bobble August 3 2009, 19:46:33 UTC

*hugs* I hope your friends aren't as fickle as that. No fight should cause irreparable damage to a friendship. And like I said to anon above, you're on my flist, which means there's got to be good stuff about you. And I like you.

Happiness is good :D Take the steps. It will happen!

anonymous August 3 2009, 19:13:54 UTC

1. No one who knows me would tell you I'm emo.

2. I have less than nine years to live.

I don't have a disease or anything, just this feeling that I won't live to be thirty. Only one friend of mine knows; she said it was probably a psychological thing where I just couldn't picture myself at that age. But it was a thought I had when I was about fifteen, a thought that I had that I didn't think of, and it sounds crazy and I might actually bring myself to an early death just thinking about that thought so much, but there it is. And years later, it hasn't gone away.

Parents and professors talk about my future as though I have forever. I don't have forever. Job interviewers ask me where I see myself in ten years. I lie through my teeth. I don't have ten years. I just have this sense that I'm here for a reason, I'm here to do something, and I don't have all that long. But every day people die suddenly, unexpectedly, today or tomorrow and the day after that. So sometimes nine years feels like forever. I put myself in dangerous ( ... )

anonymous August 4 2009, 00:20:27 UTC

Since I was little, I've 'known' that I'm going to die not very long after I hit forty. I know this isn't a comforting comment, but it's good to know that there's someone else out there like me.

anonymous August 4 2009, 04:16:28 UTC

You've been living with this longer, then, so maybe?...this question has been bothering me for a while - do you - do you think it's...um, selfish, I guess, to let people love you hard, to laugh and make jokes about growing old together, to even wish that you could fall in love and have a family if you know for sure they'll have to lose you long before any of that?

anonymous September 3 2009, 10:03:32 UTC

I've been thinking for a while about how to answer this. I'm sorry it's taken me so long to get back to you - as well as thinking about this comment, I've had some stuff going on recently ( ... )

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