[OOC] That Zen meme
Because after the hiccups I had last week, I kinda want in on this bandwagon.
Aerrow
I only got into Storm Hawks through memlu was doing her fantastic summaries/pimping for it. And I'm a sucker for cartoons. So I downloaded the first couple of episodes and watched it.
And fell in love with Aerrow. (I couldn't believe he was 14 guys, m-my heart ;;)
But while Aerrow wasn't as interesting as say, Finn or Stork or Piper, it was Aerrow that sunk his claws into my heart. He was a leader who knew how to do the right thing and sometimes made mistakes because he's a kid and he just wants to have fun just like any other kid, but he's got his mind so utterly focused on responsibilities and he's good at orders, his team listens to him, they trust him and he's so much mature than you'd expect him to be. He knows what has to be done, he knows the consequences, but he still enjoys a good time flying through dangerous trenches or going to Terra Neon for a break. And most of all, he believes so much in his team, his family whom he loves more than anything else in this world. How can anyone not love him?
So, just after getting Virgil, I wrote up his app (which I hated), BARELY got in and I never looked back. At first, his voice gave me a lot of trouble. I felt I wasn't getting him and I anguished over this because I loved him. so. goddamn. much.
Then one day, he clicked. And I was like, "This is working, I've got it."
Now I'm perfectly confident in his voice, his motives, his inner thinking that it's natural for me to type first, think later. You're never taking him away from me.
Juri
Juri breaks my app pattern of playing main characters. Her app story pretty much went like this.
Ema - Aerrow, app Juri
Me - kay.
To be fair, I considered Mikage first since Souji Mikage was my favourite character (surprise, surprise, it wasn't Juri! Shocking), but I had too much trouble pinning down his voice and Juri's voice came more easily for me. So, I wrote up her app, got my cast and I was happy.
Juri was also one of the characters I was most paranoid about. It's Utena and there were tons of essays about Juri, Juri was almost everyone's favourite character and she was so complex and difficult to understand even after watching her episodes a gazillion times, there are some things about her that still go over my head a bit. But I kept at it and slowly, she started making sense to me. Her threads affected me so personally. I wanted to cry with her, I wanted to laugh with her and most of all, I wanted her to be happy in camp. So I kept playing her, developing her relationships and loving the way she grew as a character in camp, still so fundamentally Juri in nature, but a softer sense at times and a larger view of what she is and what she is becoming. One of the reasons I can never see myself drop Juri is because camp is the place that makes her happy and I don't want to take it away from her.
tl;dr - loev juri :( even if she's an emo drama queen.
Shawn
Oh Shawn. OH SHAWN. Secretly, I wanted to app Shawn for yeaaaaaars. I would discuss with miho all the time. "HEY HEY MIHO I WANT TO APP SHAWN". But I was chicken mcwuss so I never got around to it. Then counselors came around and the other counselor app I had decided on was hating me and I was struggling with it. At the same time, I was marathoning Psych and suddenly I wrote Shawn's app on a whim, got it betaed and sent it in.
I got in with 88%. That still shocks me.
So. It hit me that I played Shawn Spencer. Shawn SPENCER. My disbelief over this still lingers TO THIS DAY. But I stuck with him and I loved him. One of the things that always makes me happy to hear is that people love Shawn just as much as I love him and a lot of people watched Psych because of me.
Also, there was the epic ass-slap thread on Livejournal that will remain with me forever.
Shawn's threads never cease to make me happy at any time, he's so unpredictable and wacky and amazing that half the time, I don't even know where I'm getting my inspiration from, but it works and he rolls with me as I roll on.
That, and how many characters get to say, "With great fonts come great responsibility"?
I thought so.
Oz
SO. Miho, the bane of my apping existence, wanted to reapp into CFUD. So she linked me to Pandora Hearts and told me to app Oz. And because Miho tops me utterly, I did. But I also did love Oz.
Oz, terrifying as it sounds, reminded me a lot of myself. The self-esteem problems, the constant doubt, the lack of actual friends of his own, the dependency he has for people....it all endeared him to me. And he tries so hard to be the strong person, to protect everyone he can, to be in a sense, a knight of shining armor and he fails at this in so many ways. And his relationships in camp have become some of my favourite relationships ever. He is childlike and yet so adult in other things. He wants to protect everyone, but he forgets to protect himself. His need for companionship overrides the danger. He has a messiah complex, but he knows he's damned. I could never understand why no one loved him as much as I do and how they cannot feel for this tiny boy who grew up too fast and grappling with everyone that has happened to him and not want to cry for him like I do all the time.
But Oz remains to be one of my versatile characters. I could put him anywhere and still have a blast with him, I have fantastic castmates and he's become a staple in my life.
LOEV OZ
Makoto
Miho strikes back. She pimped Ghost Hound at me and I, dutifully watched it, took to Makoto very easily and double-apped with her. This is not an apping pattern okay.
ANYWAY, I love playing a disgruntled tsundere boy who really is secretly more dere than anything else. He fails at social interaction, but he cares for people. He has a strong sense of justice even though he is literally cracked in the head. He also was very pretty (don't judge me). But what really got to me was that he's really such a sweet guy once you get to know him. And I wanted everyone to know him and top him a lot.
Shush. My first tsundere.
Speed Racer
HERE HE COMES HERE COMES SPEED RACER.
I wanted to app Speed Racer for aaaaaaaaaaages. I would try bullying people into it, collected screencaps over time, etc etc, I AM A DORK. And then the movie came. I was SUNK. The movie literally closed in onto me and told me to app him, HE WAS MINE. I thought "...maybe I could like wait a round at least".
No such luck. I had become so paranoid that someone else would take him away from me. So about less than a week for apps, I did a very very rushed app for Speed, I edited and betaed, I cried and whined a lot, I was so sure I wouldn't get in and I was generally a miserable whiny ass.
I got in with 97%.
Cue my shock.
Then cue my complete and utter happiness!!!!!
His voice is still somewhat shaky for me, but he's been such a blast so far and I love everything about him and his canon and I'm still on my perpetual high that I play the goddamn Speed Racer!!!!
That's my zen guys.
Aerrow
I only got into Storm Hawks through memlu was doing her fantastic summaries/pimping for it. And I'm a sucker for cartoons. So I downloaded the first couple of episodes and watched it.
And fell in love with Aerrow. (I couldn't believe he was 14 guys, m-my heart ;;)
But while Aerrow wasn't as interesting as say, Finn or Stork or Piper, it was Aerrow that sunk his claws into my heart. He was a leader who knew how to do the right thing and sometimes made mistakes because he's a kid and he just wants to have fun just like any other kid, but he's got his mind so utterly focused on responsibilities and he's good at orders, his team listens to him, they trust him and he's so much mature than you'd expect him to be. He knows what has to be done, he knows the consequences, but he still enjoys a good time flying through dangerous trenches or going to Terra Neon for a break. And most of all, he believes so much in his team, his family whom he loves more than anything else in this world. How can anyone not love him?
So, just after getting Virgil, I wrote up his app (which I hated), BARELY got in and I never looked back. At first, his voice gave me a lot of trouble. I felt I wasn't getting him and I anguished over this because I loved him. so. goddamn. much.
Then one day, he clicked. And I was like, "This is working, I've got it."
Now I'm perfectly confident in his voice, his motives, his inner thinking that it's natural for me to type first, think later. You're never taking him away from me.
Juri
Juri breaks my app pattern of playing main characters. Her app story pretty much went like this.
Ema - Aerrow, app Juri
Me - kay.
To be fair, I considered Mikage first since Souji Mikage was my favourite character (surprise, surprise, it wasn't Juri! Shocking), but I had too much trouble pinning down his voice and Juri's voice came more easily for me. So, I wrote up her app, got my cast and I was happy.
Juri was also one of the characters I was most paranoid about. It's Utena and there were tons of essays about Juri, Juri was almost everyone's favourite character and she was so complex and difficult to understand even after watching her episodes a gazillion times, there are some things about her that still go over my head a bit. But I kept at it and slowly, she started making sense to me. Her threads affected me so personally. I wanted to cry with her, I wanted to laugh with her and most of all, I wanted her to be happy in camp. So I kept playing her, developing her relationships and loving the way she grew as a character in camp, still so fundamentally Juri in nature, but a softer sense at times and a larger view of what she is and what she is becoming. One of the reasons I can never see myself drop Juri is because camp is the place that makes her happy and I don't want to take it away from her.
tl;dr - loev juri :( even if she's an emo drama queen.
Shawn
Oh Shawn. OH SHAWN. Secretly, I wanted to app Shawn for yeaaaaaars. I would discuss with miho all the time. "HEY HEY MIHO I WANT TO APP SHAWN". But I was chicken mcwuss so I never got around to it. Then counselors came around and the other counselor app I had decided on was hating me and I was struggling with it. At the same time, I was marathoning Psych and suddenly I wrote Shawn's app on a whim, got it betaed and sent it in.
I got in with 88%. That still shocks me.
So. It hit me that I played Shawn Spencer. Shawn SPENCER. My disbelief over this still lingers TO THIS DAY. But I stuck with him and I loved him. One of the things that always makes me happy to hear is that people love Shawn just as much as I love him and a lot of people watched Psych because of me.
Also, there was the epic ass-slap thread on Livejournal that will remain with me forever.
Shawn's threads never cease to make me happy at any time, he's so unpredictable and wacky and amazing that half the time, I don't even know where I'm getting my inspiration from, but it works and he rolls with me as I roll on.
That, and how many characters get to say, "With great fonts come great responsibility"?
I thought so.
Oz
SO. Miho, the bane of my apping existence, wanted to reapp into CFUD. So she linked me to Pandora Hearts and told me to app Oz. And because Miho tops me utterly, I did. But I also did love Oz.
Oz, terrifying as it sounds, reminded me a lot of myself. The self-esteem problems, the constant doubt, the lack of actual friends of his own, the dependency he has for people....it all endeared him to me. And he tries so hard to be the strong person, to protect everyone he can, to be in a sense, a knight of shining armor and he fails at this in so many ways. And his relationships in camp have become some of my favourite relationships ever. He is childlike and yet so adult in other things. He wants to protect everyone, but he forgets to protect himself. His need for companionship overrides the danger. He has a messiah complex, but he knows he's damned. I could never understand why no one loved him as much as I do and how they cannot feel for this tiny boy who grew up too fast and grappling with everyone that has happened to him and not want to cry for him like I do all the time.
But Oz remains to be one of my versatile characters. I could put him anywhere and still have a blast with him, I have fantastic castmates and he's become a staple in my life.
LOEV OZ
Makoto
Miho strikes back. She pimped Ghost Hound at me and I, dutifully watched it, took to Makoto very easily and double-apped with her. This is not an apping pattern okay.
ANYWAY, I love playing a disgruntled tsundere boy who really is secretly more dere than anything else. He fails at social interaction, but he cares for people. He has a strong sense of justice even though he is literally cracked in the head. He also was very pretty (don't judge me). But what really got to me was that he's really such a sweet guy once you get to know him. And I wanted everyone to know him and top him a lot.
Shush. My first tsundere.
Speed Racer
HERE HE COMES HERE COMES SPEED RACER.
I wanted to app Speed Racer for aaaaaaaaaaages. I would try bullying people into it, collected screencaps over time, etc etc, I AM A DORK. And then the movie came. I was SUNK. The movie literally closed in onto me and told me to app him, HE WAS MINE. I thought "...maybe I could like wait a round at least".
No such luck. I had become so paranoid that someone else would take him away from me. So about less than a week for apps, I did a very very rushed app for Speed, I edited and betaed, I cried and whined a lot, I was so sure I wouldn't get in and I was generally a miserable whiny ass.
I got in with 97%.
Cue my shock.
Then cue my complete and utter happiness!!!!!
His voice is still somewhat shaky for me, but he's been such a blast so far and I love everything about him and his canon and I'm still on my perpetual high that I play the goddamn Speed Racer!!!!
That's my zen guys.