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[ozwolf]

Seeing Lorne was alright. He told me that I need to have a talk with her, which I knew already, but probably still had to hear. Something's going down, I just haven't been told what. I've heard what, but no one's asked me to join in, and I'm thinking there's reasons for that. Not very happy about people going into the belly of the beast without me

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[slayer_wannabe_]

I see Oz coming down the stairs with a bottle of water in hand, in all honestly I'm glad it's him and not TweedleDumb and TweedleDumber, there's only so much bitching a girl can take.

I stand up and move over to the bars, having trouble trying to overcome the tremors that are coming over me. Not to mention the cramps all over. I think I need to sit back down...

[ozwolf]

I head towards Kennedy and frown. "You don't look very good." I point out. "Are you okay?" I get close to the bars and squat down, setting the water inside for her. ....it's not like I couldn't shift and get out of her grip if it came to that. ...she doesn't look like she's playing possum though. She looks like she feels unwell.

[slayer_wannabe_]

I take the water from the ground and sit down in the same motion, pulling my legs close to my chest. It helps, but not much. I unscrew the cap and take a large gulp of water. “A world of ‘no’”, I say. It feels like my whole body’s rebelling against me right now.

[ozwolf]

Probably won't help her, but I offer anyways. "Want any medicine?" I know Cordy's got a ton of it in the office. People live here. They get headaches and stomachaches and colds along with the bite wounds, stab wounds and other such stuff.

[slayer_wannabe_]

The tremors are coming on again, I squeeze my eyes shut and let it wash over me. My teeth chattering. I wouldn’t let Faithy or tall, brunette and sexy as hell see me this way. But little pup blue? I don’t know why, but letting him see me like this doesn’t feel like the end of the world. Trust might have something to do with it. He’s trusting that I won’t try to hurt him, and I trust he won’t tell anyone about how much I feel like shit.

I grimace and shrug, “I--,” chatter-chatter, “I’m a Potential Slayer, one with the potential to have the Power. Faith’s Power. I grew up all my life training, being told that I could be something. To be honest, I never really cared for her. I actually looked up to her, but obviously working for Wolfram and Hart this past year or so has changed my perspective.”

[ozwolf]

"Not so sure that's a good thing...how about you?" I ask. It's asking if she still wants to run amok and be evil, or if she might want to back out while she still can. While the option is here.

[slayer_wannabe_]

I know what he means when he says that, but I also know what I want. No. Not The Power. Eve. I want Eve. She never pushed for me to take the enhancers. Not really. It was my fault it got the way it did, I can’t lay blame anywhere else.

“I think I’ve had my share,” I say after a long minute with a sigh. And boy, wasn’t that true?

[ozwolf]

I nod. "Good to hear." I say. "Though good news...you're in the right place to start."

[slayer_wannabe_]

There might have been a time when I would have taken advantage of this (a whole yesterday, to be exact), but I’m in no position to fight, or argue or do anything that would cause physical pain. Not to him, or me. Not anymore. I’m past angry, past pissed-off at the world. Mostly, I hurt. From the things I’ve done, the drugs I took in order to stay this way… it just wasn’t worth it.

I reach my hands shakily through the bars and gratefully accept the ice cream. “Ben and Jerry’s. You went all out,” I smile at him, settling a little on the spot. “Thanks.”

[ozwolf]

"I expect to be murdered in my bed by Cordy when she finds out, but I'm counting on being able to hear her coming first." I say, deadpan. "You're welcome."

[slayer_wannabe_]

I laugh a little at that and start the process of opening the Ben and Jerry’s, it’s harder than it should be, I can’t seem to stop my hands from shaking. After a minute, a long minute, I get it open.

“Baby steps,” I say, more to myself than to him.

[ozwolf]

I nod to her, not really answering, but agreeing. "I'm sure everything'll work out eventually." I tell her. Hope doesn't hurt.