Sunday night blues.... in that gothic kind of way.

[p0etic_despair]

Well it's Sunday night, correction: Monday morning and I can't sleep. I thought I would considering I was about to fall asleep at 10 and I went to bed yesterday morning at 6 and woke up at 12. I thought writing my help put me to sleep. I'm finally alone and I have to consult with myself about alot of events and feelings that have been going on.

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Soul Searcher

[surrealofdreams]

WOW, you have been doing a lot of thinking eh?...I don't know...maybe I should do more thinking...even though I do do a lot of thinking ya know...and I've been saying ya know so much lately...well anyway, I'm sorry if I ever act or sound immature to you or anything...I mean...everyone has their moments...some more so then others...but I know what you mean about being surrounded by idiots...I mean, I know I'm not above anyone cause I realy have no reason to think I'm above anyone, cause come on, I'm really not htat smart or anything...but yeah...I still hate being surrounded by complete idiots...but that's life for me...anyway...have fun with all this soul searching your doing...and thanks for not thinking I'm some crazy stupid love sick puppy and all *Huggles*
Much love, YOur friend
AMandA

Re: Soul Searcher

[p0etic_despair]

Soul searching, I didn't think about it, but I guess it's what I'm doing. I like calling that too. You don't act immature around me nor do you sound immature. You are smart, so quit telling yourself that you're not. Even if you're not smart, which you are, you still shouldn't tell youself that you're not smart. It lowers your self esteem. Which I'm not sure if pride and self esteem are the same thing. But non the less, you are smart so quit telling yourself that you're not. I don't think that you are a stupid love sick puppy, just be safe, and SMART!

Re: Soul Searcher

[blue_boinker]

Wow that was deep and yet oh so true about so many people out there and around you. Its hard to believe but at one point in life everyone seems to think the same things you just desribed in you very long, yet inspiring entry. I too have felt like there were things in the past i could have done differently and maybe i would be happy happier now. There were people i could have let know my feelings and maybe things today would be different. Like my sophmore year i could have had probably the greastes relationship of my life with a friend who made me extremly happy and yet niether one of us were able to admit how we really felt

Theres his brother...

[yamaha_queen28]

I was almost late to school because of that entry.

Soul searching..hm..

HEY KRIS! ~kyndall

[anonymous]

hey...that entry was VERY LONG!!! but sorta interesting you had some good points & yes there is a bunch of dumb fucks that like to be completely retarded but i find it quite fun to be a total bitch to people like that & i usually tell them to shut the fuck up but anyways... the girl of your dreams is out there somewhere just wait your still 18 you have plenty of time even though you prolly do feel a whole lot older than you are, i do too. im so happy i found the person im going to spend the rest of my life with, its one of the best feelings in the world, but it still doesnt solve all my problems ya kno...a partner cant fix everything, but it does make you a lot happier, you just have to find the rite girl. I dont think you should go to the marines but if you must, ok. i think you should go to college and become a serious journalist<