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[p0llux]

the last few days here are supposed to be fun and you're supposed to hang out with everyone and be friends, but they are all tainted for me. every time i turn around at these community events, it's the two of them. i don't even seek it out, it's just constantly in my sights because of how small this school is. they're in front of my parking

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[cockass]

If envy doesn't work for you, how about "self-pity" ? ...

[p0llux]

crossed my mind.

[cockass]

I really do adore you - honestly. Excuse my harshness, but maybe she's vile enough to get off on this emotional power-trip.

[p0llux]

she's not bad or malicious, we're just locked into the same place, and for her to not live her life on my behalf would be too much for anyone. it just sucks shit.

[0b5erver0ner]

this is what alcohol is for. drink away from reality.

im kidding. but it's one of those experiences that lets you know you are living life right? i know... this coming from one of the most depressing people on the planet huh. but fuck em. do the dew and get beck so you can hear the other dj pollux spin with me at 1015... then we can jack him for his laptop because all djs...except me... are on serato now.

[makingyourgrave]

it's weird. obviously i'm extremely far away from my "them," and therefore never see them, but seeing them when i went back didn't particularly bother me in the way i thought it would. thinking about them now doesn't bother me at all - in fact, i rarely think about him at all. maybe i loved him less than you loved her. but we did live together, and our day-to-day reality was entirely wrapped up in being together all the time, in bed or the shower or the kitchen or wherever.

i hope that you can start to feel about her the way i feel about him. i pity him, but i'm mostly indifferent. and her existence in his life doesn't affect me because it was over long before it was over.

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