why am i such a fuck up?

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i cant sleep. again. i really dont want to sit and stare blankly at a tv screen, but your brain waves are the same when your sleeping as when you watch tv. i figure thats the closest i will get to sleep. i didnt sleep for 3 days cause im a fuck up and mixed amphetamines with psychedelics. i was able to sleep on the 4th night but now i havent slept

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[xcentrikka]

Josie, you are in no way a fuck up. You are doing what you want to do and that is incredibly brave. I mean, there's nothing wrong with needing to travel around a bit (hah, or more than a bit), especially at your age. As you get a little older it might be something you have to work out, or maybe not, but you'll figure it out when you get there. Anyway, until then, I know you are going to have lots of amazing adventures. Don't let the jitters get to you, Hawaii is going to be a blast. And if it's not, well, it will at least be a learning experience. And you can always go somewhere else. Hah, you know you always have a place in NYC (even though you hate it here). So try to enjoy yourself (though I know that can be hard). And if there's anything I can ever do for ya, just let me know. <3