man i have to take my girl cat to be fixed today at 815am. oh so shitty! im a lil scared for her i dont want anything bad to happen. so i guess i should get some sleep sense its 2 am. lol... oh well ttyl.

i just kinda felt like writing for now. i really have nothing to say but that i sent matt an email for him to read when he gets home from work. i told him a lot on how i feel about some things. i dunno if he is going to like what i said or not but it really doesnt matter any more sense i already sent it. i dunno what to do with myself any more i ( Read more... )

i am so bored right now its pathatic. i just got home a lil bit ago from matts we went up up to the koney that he works at and sat there for like almost 2 hours just drinking coffe and talking. then we drove around for a wile and i told him about some of my past relationships, and some shit that has happened to me in the past. and we talked about ( Read more... )

hey i just wanted to say thank you. i know that he never would hit me, its just that i dont want him to feel bad about what happened cuz it was no big deal even though he thought it was. he is a lot better today even though he still feels bad for it. its just that i have had abusive relationships mentaly and fisically. sorry im a lil high right now ( Read more... )

well matt started his job back up at koney today. but he is so depressed. ok lemme tell u what happened... well last night me and him were just horseing around and he slaped me on the ass twice REALLY hard. i got upset because just the way he did it made me think of a lot of things that happened to me before in past relationships and when i told ( Read more... )

me and matt were talking about 3somes earlier sense im bi it really wouldnt be a problem with me and i know that he has really wanted one with 2 girls before, but im so nurvously poseseive when it comes to that kind of shit i dont know what to do. im really nurvous that ya know what if he gets to into it and starts going after the other girl( even ( Read more... )