hmmm, not much to put here. I just feel like writing something. I haven't really posted much in the past year, on myspace or on here. I haven't taken the time. My night terrors have been gone for the most part, too. well, until last week. They came back several nights last week, but they've faded from my memory at this point. They'll come back ( Read more... )

Most men have a mid-life crisis, and buy a sports car or a motorcycle. Mine gets a tattoo and asks for a divorce. He's decided he's not happy with his family, and he wants to divorce my mom. Apparently, we're not as good as his lodge buddies. I hate him. I don't know how he can do this too my mom. She never actually wanted to get married in the ( Read more... )

So it's been a while, I guess. Just felt like posting again. I woke up a few minutes ago from a night terror, but it was one of the milder ones, and I wasn't screaming- thank God, because I hate waking everyone up like that. In other news, I'm gonna try to get the details of a truck hammered out today.I'm getting off the night shift sometime around ( Read more... )

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I'm so depressed. I'm not really even sure why anymore. I woke up this morning crying, and couldn't bring myself to move. I fell back asleep after an hour or so, and then got up this afternoon after the fourth or fifth nightmare. My night terrors have been really bad as of late. I haven't gone a night without one in over two weeks. I'm so tired of ( Read more... )

Yeah... so I'm quiting all of my vices. I'm trying to get my head on straight, so I'm not gonna drink anymore- not even the occassional drink. I'm not gonna smoke anymore either. I feel completely lost- I don't know where I'm going anymore, or what I'm doing. I just want to dissappear. I want to walk off into the woods, and leave everyone and ( Read more... )

If there is someone on your friends list you would like to take, strip naked, tie them to a bed post, lick them until they scream, then fuck them until both of you are senseless and unable to fuck anymore, then wait about five minutes and do it all over again, then post this exact sentence in YOUR journal.

I'm through with being annoyed about what I'm doing with my life, I'm tired of getting yelled at, and I'm most certainly tired of people snapping at me for trying to be there for them. Fuck everyone. You don't want anything to do with me, and I sure as fuck don't want to be a waste of your time.

I just had a night terror. I woke up sweating even though it was about 50 degrees in the room. I think I'm coming down with something, too. I feel like I'm going to be sick to my stomach. I really hate who I've become, and I feel like I'm falling backwards, becoming the person I was two years ago. I've managed to keep from pushing people away, but ( Read more... )

There's been a lot of rain lately. Looking outside into the rain reminds me about life's changes. Everyone running through the rain. It falls down, washing away the old grime and mess, renewing our world and invigorating life. I love the rain. The cool dampness that fills the air, a sort of almost low. Yet after it's over, the sun shines again, and ( Read more... )