i cut myself and it hurtz b/c itz been a while. im so depressed. i need 2 whore around. at least then ill have some sort of self esteem

well i spent my whole sb sick, working, and crying over my life and situation w/ jj! ive been so out of it and jelous. we r tryin 2 hang out and talk and its screwin up my head. and i want 2 be with him but idk if its more for security or what. idk. i dont ever go out to meet other ppl and hes alwayz out w/ aubrey all of the many girls aubrey ( Read more... )

yeah jj offered 2 pick me up 4rm school yesterday so i wouldnt b late 4 work and all and we drank 2gether. i think i said some drunken stupid things and i know i was a bitch. im so freakin confused and i dont know what i want or what he wants.

anyway, im a bunny 2day : )
HAPPY EASTER!!! WELL IN A FEW DAYS....

so me and jj broke up this time 4 good b/c theres nothin i can do 2 change my mistake. we went 2 breakfast 2gether this morning in order 2 talk. our situation is very awkward, but ill see where things go

6 days til my 2 yr anniversary!

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im feelin a little better. i hope work isnt too busy

i feel like im losing everything...my friends, my mind, my boyfriend, but most of all my fucking sanity!

i got my 1st paycheck yesterday and altough it wasnt much, i was grateful 4 somethin. my st pattys day was kinda blah. i sat around w/ jj.
itz weird, lately i cant have sex . it feels really odd and uncomfortable and i cant get n2 it really. i told jj that last night and he got upset. i enjoy his company, but maybe im falling outta love.....

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