this might be such a wrong thing to say b/c it's terrible to even think what i'm about to say...but "frankly my dear, i don't give a damn"
i wish i would just lose it.
i'm already half way there and i know that
but i wish i would lose it completely
let my mind leave me so i could forget reality
and live forever in the fantasy world my mind created
i'd just completely snap
and i'd never have to be in pain again
i'd be in a room with soft padded walls
and i could jump around and dance and sing
and people would think i'm crazy
but it wouldn't matter because i would be [crazy]
and i'd be happy and smily all the time
i'd be permanently institutionalized
but i wouldnt be in pain.
ever.
again.
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds and lullabies
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me....