I fail at life.

I'm not even kidding.

Fucckkkkkkk.

I haven't been sleeping very well for the past few days. Okay, more like a week.... at least.
Maybe I should try going to bed before 4 and waking up before 3? I don't know.

I haven't been very productive. I am also starting to feel the symptoms of complete and utter boredom. Fuckkkk.
I'm trying to tell myself that 6 weeks isn't really all that long.
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The end of the school year is growing ever so near and, all things considered, things are going well.
The only thing keeping me sane is not thinking about the fact that I won't be able to spend my summer with my best friend.

+ AP Lang went well.
+ I have a B in Physics and an A in Spanish
+ Finals will be easy
- Work blows.
- SAT's again on June 2nd (why ( Read more... )

I feel like SHIT right now!

I know, I know, it's just a cold, blah blah but really...
I need to bring up my grades...and I have about 3 days to do that.
I also have about 4 tests.
I can't study when I'm lying on my couch trying to get some sleep because I literally got 3 hours of sleep last night.
klajdfnieu!
Really, I was probably already going to get a ( Read more... )

I think I need to get more sleep.

Life all sems like on big blur.  It's not just me, right?

I am going to be an adult in about 4 months...

p.s. - i really am okay right now, though my last few posts may seem slightly contradicting.
life, for the most part, is pretty okay. i swear.

Don't you hate it when shit makes you so fucking happy then so fucking sad at the same damn time?

(Yeah - there are three separate profanities in that one sentence.)

I feel the need to write this now in case I forget (God forbid) this amazing feeling.

When you come home from a trip with an absolute bliss and an entirely new outlook on life, you know that it was one good trip.
I cannot even describe to you what I am feeling. I'm trying to put it into words just for the sake of being able to understand what is ( Read more... )

"This has got to die. This has got to stop."

These thoughts aren't leaving my head. And I really need them to. This isn't good for me.
This isn't REAL. & it never will be. Just get over it, Kayla.

I always get my hopes up.

I just want something real.

Sometimes I just don't understand people and thier reasoning.
Or lack thereof.

Lately it just seems as though I have been finding out how truley stupid some people can be.
Some things just aren't cool!
Things can get out of control easier and faster than you think.

I pride myself on not falling into the trap.
Sure, I will drink, but I just can never ( Read more... )