lots of random men right now, 
they are all no good for me

and I dont have time for them anyway,
but its been a long time since Ive had this kind of attention, and it is fun

but I  wish I had time for [codename] SAM, he is incredible. incredible incredible. and so is his cheesecake

 this is my first real day off in 60 days, ha wow.

and I'm sick, fanfuckingtastic

today I stopped off after work and kicked up leaves in a golden parking lot, smiling to myself because that was the best thing I had done in years

 Im trying to find a place in seattle so I can just sell my car and bus it on the weekend/ride my bike to school and work on the weekdays

I'm so excited by this idea, I cant even tell you, to go home alone and be alone and relax for once but have slumber parties with the people I love in the place that  I earned

I deserve it.

if you ask me

 alone in seattle

and it feels alright

I'm livin and chillin and

learnin on a saturday night.

Haha

Life is weird, aint it though?

I'm back at school, and i feel like I only have few friends left in my life.

I'm detached and almost unhappy

but im drawing lawn gnomes so it is ok. ha

I hope you feel better, wherever you are

 SOOOOOOOOO TIRED

#1 FUCK HOMEWORK, I HAVE TOO MUCH

#2 DADID IS AAAAAAAAAAAAAMAAAAAAAZING!

#3 FASHION WEEK WAS THE BEST TIMES I HAVE EVER HAD WITH THAT BOY, AND THAT IS SAYING A FUCKING LOT

#4 i GET TO MODEL GHAHAHAHAHAHQWIRUGQ39

#5OMG WHERE AM I

lunch at school
I got invited to go out to drinks with some of the  younger people from class which was kind of exciting. They didn't realize how young I was though, ha.

good god I miss everyone, that is probably all I am going to post about lately,
also how crazy my schedule is now, and it seems to just be getting worse. But it's worth it right? ( Read more... )

 I have never felt so lonely in just a week. and I feel like no one is goign to understand, they are just going to get mad and move on.

its really just hurting my head, I have to go do homework and then go to work at 4 in the morning.

bye

 Krystal and chris broke up and I couldnt even offer her 10 minutes to have coffee.