breathe.

[paintyourskyred]

Sometimes you wish you could just die and be born another person. I promised myself I would never let another person lay a hand on me, but I lied. I always find myself in this situation and it's beginning to become apparent that maybe it is just me. I am the cause and result. I would rather live a lifetime alone than compromise my emotions...as

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[pleasantchaos]

i know what you mean sweetheart.
hey miss you come on aim some time an IM me lol.
havea great weekend.

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[anonymous]

Hey, a lot of what you said are things i have thought, though i don't know you so i can't be sure if you're thinking what i'm thinking. I don't want to tell you what to do, but you need to love yourself before you can accept someone elses love. Who is the dictator of feelings? You are. You don't have to compromise, but don't be afraid to grow. Change is necessary, but often hard. You can find the answers you seek, if you are willing to ask the hard questions and accept the answers. Being alone is a hard thing sometimes, especially if you experience the "gap filler." You sound like you're on the right path, it's hard as hell, but i believe in you, and i don't even know you. Am i happy go lucky? No, sometimes i'm a real sarcastic prick, but i try to remember to love myself, and greater than my power to hurt is my power to heal. I don't want to sound like a fortune cookie, so i'll go now. Don't live with regret, i hope you are well, L.A. (yes, those are really my initials, no i don't live anywhere near Ca.)

pleasantnachos

[anonymous]

Man, these guys are wanks. SanJo does suck. the first chance you get move to san francisco, the mission district. It's a ghetto where poor intellectuals get bumped by poor black and brown kids looking to steal whatevers being offered. If you cant manage a move to SF, then forget it, concrete is the culture. email me: cobos@hellokitty.com if you want places to hang out. I live in europe now and never plan on going back. though I do miss americans sometimes. later burnt.

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[mjlogan75]

I don't claim to know what it is you are going through, I can tell it's something similar to what I have been going through and I know it sucks. The only thing I can tell you is fill your own gaps. Don't look for someone else to fill the missing pieces. When you are whole, when you are ready the right person will be there and they are going to be much better for you than you ever thought possible, and you for them, because you took the time to fill your own gaps. I know it sounds like rhetorical nonsense but believe me it is true. The one thing I have really learned from the last two years is that it is good and healthy to spend time alone and discover who you are. Take care, and God bless.