5 months and still stong...

[pairofdeis]

Things are MUCH better between Jonathon and I... all it cost was me giving us a what could have been better annaversary. He showed up later Friday night and told me to go to the kitchen. I walk in to find a FISHBOWL and 2 FISH inside! I started crying because I felt so shitty about what was going on inside my head and I couldn't get the leaked copy

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[bauske]

Hey, you're not alone on that. Even though I can't relate to you in the sense that I haven't had other relationships where people have left me, I know what you're feeling on some level or another. I've even expressed those thoughts to Ben. The thought of something coming along and him leaving me or finding out everything we spent together was false is an incredibly scary thought. But, it sounds like you have a real good one with Jonathan. You shouldn't worry. Easy to say, I know.

There are two options: You can stay afraid and worry that something might happen, or you can try to forget about it and trust that he says what he means and that things will work out and you two will be happy. Sometimes relationships take a little bit of work - I'm finding this out for myself. It's not always perfect, but if both people truly want it, and show that to one another, then it is my belief that it can end in nothing but happiness.

[pairofdeis]

The fears aren't quite so frequent and he really shows that he's not like those in the past. It's usually the annaversary of something bad that happened to me that occasionally brings the fear. You realized how this relationship is everything that you've been searching for for the past 10 years and you want it to be perfect. You don't want to jeopardize it in any way and when you realize something is wrong, you panic. You realize he is everything you have been looking for and you know you are everything he's been searching for; but you never EVER want him to EVER second guess that.

I realized just now that today marks 5 years since my ex-fiancee admitted he was doing heroin behind my back for the first time.

Scars may stay forever but do eventually start to fade and eventually are forgotten. All it takes is time...

[kymus]

I didn't deserve anything

Never say that! Lauren is the best >:o

[pairofdeis]

You are too sweet!

[kymus]

nah, I'm just really well trained :D

[pairofdeis]

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I love it!

[cactusschatz]

Tell him he better do the internship here.

[pairofdeis]

LOL he asks why.

[cactusschatz]

He just better.

[pairofdeis]

Umm I really don't think that answer's going to convince him...