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May 14, 2006 19:09

So this afternoon I was thinking. I have really bad trust issues. I think that's why it's so difficult for me to open up to others and comfortably tell them what's on my mind. I'm so scared of becoming unhappy, that sometimes I just induce unhappiness upon myself because I worry about it so much. I often wonder how long people are gonna be around. ( Read more... )

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paix_libre May 15 2006, 01:40:13 UTC

I know that. It's just that I hate change. And everything's changing. And change leads to so many things that I hate. Like lost relationships and me fucking up every 6.4 seconds. And me sorta feeling like since everyone's changing, no one has time to listen. That's why I write in my livejournal so much. And which one did you read that I deleted? I deleted like 4 entries after I wrote this one.
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paix_libre May 15 2006, 02:03:22 UTC

Oh haha. Well good news, I'm really bored and I'm filling out another one right now so mentally prepare yourself for some boring answers about myself. P.S. I'm calling you soon

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lo_voglio May 15 2006, 00:09:26 UTC

I have a really hard time trusting people. A couple of years ago I used ot be really open and tell people exaclty how I felt, then people started using things against me or use it to make fun of me. After that I became a very reserved person. But now Im starting to open up again thanks to my boyfriend. Hes one of the only people I know that is 100 percent honestand trustworthy . And Im learning that opening up and being able to trust is easy. Im still scared that its going to cycle and im going to be hurt again but I say fuck it. Being able to trust someone easily is a great feeling.

sorry I just wrote you a novel ahha

paix_libre May 15 2006, 01:34:07 UTC

Ugh yeah. I hate the feeling. I used to be very open as well, but I honestly have no idea what happened to change that. I all of the sudden got really worried about what people would think about the things that I said. And I always feel so worried of peoples' reactions when I tell them things. Like -- I have those people that I feel comfortable talking about certain things to, but I haven't really found that one person I can tell everyyyything too. I'm just fucked up haha. And the road to recovery is way to long

lo_voglio May 15 2006, 01:58:45 UTC

I do the same exact thing. I feel like I have to please everyone around me. I used to hate meeting new people at times becuase I didnt know how to react to them. Now Im slowly getting used to just being myself. It scary jumping into a pool and not know if there will be water to catch me.

paix_libre May 15 2006, 02:01:42 UTC

I know the excact feeling. Everyone thinks I'm so weird for it. It's not so much that I worry about what people will think about me. But it's kinda just that if I keep to myself, maybe I won't cause any un needed animosity because of something I said. And sometimes I guess I just feel like if I stay as cynical as possible, I won't need to tell people how I feel. But it's hard not having that person to count on.

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