Earlier today I felt so numb. I felt nothing...then I talk to this girl...oh she is amazing...anyway...I talk to her...and I'm happy. Until we got into deep conversation, until I got insane, until I started putting my self down, again. She's really wonderful, everything about her makes me happy...but I'm sure she doesn't feel the same way. So...we' ( Read more... )

Oh, forgot to mention what I got at the mall. I bought a gay-pride arm warmer. It's nice. I walked around the mall pointing at it, and saying "I'm gay!" aloud. T'was fun until shit started. Until I realised how much of an ass I could be. God...wth? I was gonna make this post a happy one. Well like I've said to someone, I'm all one stupid, unread, ( Read more... )

I have no fucking clue why I put myself through this. I don't know why I bother to care, or give people a second chance. Stephanie hasn't changed at all. She is still wanting to be center of attention most of the time, and doesn't take time to actually talk. It's all about sex with her, and I don't get it ( Read more... )

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It's time to update again, with my depressing shit. I warn you all, reading this may seriously depress you, or make you want to kill someone, mostly me ( Read more... )

What the hell is wrong with people. I gave up all care about my appearance, and wore the clothes I slept in to school, and wore just eyeliner, because I feel naked without it. So people decide to tell me I look different. I ask why, they don't know. I ask is it good or bad, and they say good. Why is it that when I give up things happen for me? ( Read more... )

I don't really understand what is going on with me lately. I thought I was doing okay, and I go back to school, with the drag of everything, and I'm back where I started. I don't understand why I am effected to little over two deaths in my family. I don't get how I can be so numb, that I have to cause myself physical pain so that I can know if I am ( Read more... )

I feel a hell of a lot better than I did last night, and the only reason I have is that I had a wonderful caht with Hayley. I really don't have much more to say. I still have that empty feeling about me, but it has eased up a bit ( Read more... )