I seriously can't figure out why I bother anymore ( Read more... )

Still writing the first paragraph of my paper two hours later.
I'm so bored and I struggle so much with school.
Its not hard AT ALL, its just not what I want to be doing.
Ughhh! So annoying, and everything else is not helping.

Nothing and no one is of any help!
I help.
But not many other people, I've found.

Ha.
Ha
Ha
Ha
Ha.

Bullshit! I was so right.
I am so right.

I don't know how to begin to describe...how disappointed I am.
I want to be important to someone.
The most important someone.

F*** it, its all the same.

I'm exhausted emotionally and physically.
And morally confused.
You can only depend on yourself.
Maybe the people muttering to themselves are on to something.

I jinxed it.

I'm going to say it.
I'm going to say it!

Even if it jinxes it beyond all hell!

I'm happy.

I am so conflicted.
I just want one thing in my life to be certain.

I hate others.

I have never been more happy yet hurt yet confused in my good life.

There is nothing like asking God a question and getting an answer.
I never claimed to be perfect, but I do claim to be me.
Whose reality is real?

I just want to be a housewife. Just a housewife.
World's smartest housewife.