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question: 'how many times do we have to run away from things we don't want ?'
answer: 'cause the truth is gonna change every thing'
i'm scared of uncertainty,
i'm scared and afraid of many things,
though i don't show it too.
i keep running, running.....
until i am really tired to run.
it's not the physical run, is the mental running that is killing most of us.
it makes us want to cry want to scream that all the shit that is thrown to us.
some times i can't help wonder if you do care about me?
do you know how insecure you make me feel?
though my whole life i thought i could live without you, everytime i try i just cant.
i want to talk it out with someone, but it's such a sensitive topic.
when i talk about it. i cant help feeling so useless and not 'matured'
i have to get to use to it that she doesn't affect me at all.
you matter so much to me that i try to forget about you day and night. but it never work.
i fight all the urgers to try keep contact with you.
i told myself to stop stop but i just cant.
never dared to put too much light on this, we can see thru the cracks
why do you need to leave me?
maybe coming on to this world was a big mistake that broke this family up.