No I'm not. I found out, not from Ryan, because he wouldn't tell me, that he still has feelings for you and wants to get back together with you.(I have proof of it, I was sent a convo he had with someone, I can read it all to you) He doesn't love me, he never has that I can see. It was all a lie. I don't know, maybe being hurt is keeping me from seeing things, but...right now I don't know if I want to see. I love Ryan, always will. I just can't be with him when he still loves you. I have nothing against you at all! It's not you. He just needs to figure things out. I will be ok, I'll move on. Life isn't about staying stuck in the same old hurt forever. You have to go on and be happy, or else you'll waist away to nothing. I don't believe that's what I should do, waist away and feel sorry for myself. I've forgiven the people I need to, sincerely. I really have. I just hope they will except my forgiveness. That's all I want. I don't like this at all....but I still love everyone invovled, it's not in me to hate. My heart won't let me, and
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Pam, you know, in all the things we've seen and talked about in sixteen and a half years of being friends, I honestly can say that my intuition towards you, and yours towards mine is probably stronger than anyone elses for us. I mean, geez, its like I know how you're feeling all the time, and know what you'll say next. I can't lie to you because I think you'd already know the truth lol. I hope you'll find someone like that, a guy. Someone to love and who will love you back without it being a total lie. hurting never was truly loving, and talking isn't necessarily communicating.
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