Comments | pan_sapiens: a pre-emptive opus

pan_sapiens

a pre-emptive opus

Feb 19, 2006 00:01

so, just what is to happen? time, life! is passing, but with every expired second one must wonder whether one approves of what happened inside it. i have been thinking and reading and talking a lot lately, and it has reminded me of some ongoing yet nevermoving project in my mind to remove all infestations. the word, amusing as it is, is not ( Read more... )

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awakeningdancer February 18 2006, 13:30:18 UTC

i guess i've always thought what point is there in having many people around if you don't interact and learn and exchange? but i feel we should keep a part of ourselves sacred and secret...because melting into the abyss isn't helpful either...i think if you can keep a sacred piece of yourself, your core and yet be present in life you'd be on a good path

awakeningdancer February 18 2006, 13:37:53 UTC

but then again sometimes our enemies are less damaging than those who act with good intentions...

it's hard to strike a balance between the outside and the inside...

pan_sapiens February 19 2006, 00:18:14 UTC

my scheme in this sense is to go all ship-in-a-variably-corked-bottle. still at sea, yet still seperated, but not when it is meaningful to be mixed together.

asaryu February 18 2006, 22:31:25 UTC

I'm curious. If interacting with other people and adopting their mannerisms is something that you do, isn't it then you doing it, the real you that sits inside, choosing which things you like, and which things you don't and what to say and how to say it? It is not the fact that you do adopt these mannerisms, but the ones you choose to adopt and reject that make you who you are ( ... )

pan_sapiens February 19 2006, 00:16:06 UTC

this isn't a matter of a real me and a fake me, there isn't some parfait effect going on, in my view. so this isn't really a case of suddenly deciding i can't stand people anymore. in my case, it *is* like food dye mixing together. influences can't be unmade with a force of will.

as for interactions, well, isn't it a flood gate if you want it to be? i'm not speaking about some general form here, this is more liamcentric. i mean, it's not like i'm some manner of absorbent kitchen towelette in this sense, but it is a matter of not wanting to regulate some things.

and of the making of people: i disgree most strongly. the kitchen towelette thing doesn't fly. people interact with others, there is some self-creation going on.

so in conclusion, i'm not trying to stop influences because i wonder if they are a bad thing, i'm going to take a somewhat more active role in self-preservation with said influences.

prince_galileo February 18 2006, 22:56:44 UTC

As your attourny i advise you to read or reread kahlil gibrans the madman as well, as well as yourself.

sylvanheathcote February 19 2006, 01:30:15 UTC

I don't have your worry at all. In fact, I think I have quite the opposite. I have been lamenting a bit recently that I really didn't change very much at all in 2005, at least when compared to 2004. I'm very much in the same position now as I was when uni started last year and in my mind thats for soem reason regretable. I liked very much how my life changed alot throughout 2004 and most of that was through the influence of people who I met whose personalities I somewhat absorbed ( ... )