Good night everyone. I am now going to turn into a pumpkin. Yes I am.

Ok, I think that you must all know something. Really. You must, so don't even try to avoid this message ( Read more... )

ok i am extremely happy at the moment. i just bought Marilyn Manson's new album *drool*. oh yesh, we love Mr. Manson. can you tell ( Read more... )

i'm actually not feeling so bad right now. amazing, isn't it? somehow i just feel...i feel...content. yes, that's it - content. i am content with myself because i feel stronger today than i did last night as i cried myself to sleep. i'm not the same girl anymore. last night i shed some skin and left it behind to dry up and fade into time. i am ( Read more... )

ok, this entry is for leslie ( Read more... )

oh yes. i foresee that this will be a day when i update every few seconds, traveling back to my computer because i don't want to be alone, but i don't want to actually see anyone. i think i can live like that, staring at this screen, fingers glued to an overused keyboard, because right now, things don't look bright ( Read more... )

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well, no one ever said trying to change and being happy was going to be easy. in fact, it's damn near impossible. i cried last night. it was strange. i mean, i was feeling a little better after talking to some on-line buddies of mine (aw, leslie's such an amazing friend and i am ever so grateful for her). but, i suppose those tears just needed to ( Read more... )

it happened ( Read more... )

whew. ok. i'm trying to calm down and maybe - just maybe - i might explain what all of that was about ( Read more... )