don't wanna work in a building downtown
right now i just need a little bit of success in my life.
all i want is a job i can make a living off of that doesn't make me want to die.
somehow it all really affects me. substituting and temping and doing nothing else actually makes me depressed. like i don't want to get out of bed in the morning.
all i look forward to right now is the next lost disc coming in the mail
and maybe a new episode of "this american life"
these are the milestones in my life
and the working and the being semi-depressed completely zaps me of any energy or motivation to do anything that isn't showing up to work and going through the motions
i know what i want to be doing, i love doing it, and i can do it
i'm good at it
i can't imagine doing anything else
i don't even know how to do anything else
right now though i'm not doing a single thing i want to be doing
right now i'm just killing time and praying for the days to pass until something better happens.
i don't know if i have the energy to keep trying things that really aren't working
and really, i don't know what more i could do that i haven't done.
i'm going to be 25 next month, and that feels old to me.
too old to be killing time
especially if i'm not on the road to something.
lord won't you send me a sign cause i just gotta know if i'm wasting my time
all i want is a job i can make a living off of that doesn't make me want to die.
somehow it all really affects me. substituting and temping and doing nothing else actually makes me depressed. like i don't want to get out of bed in the morning.
all i look forward to right now is the next lost disc coming in the mail
and maybe a new episode of "this american life"
these are the milestones in my life
and the working and the being semi-depressed completely zaps me of any energy or motivation to do anything that isn't showing up to work and going through the motions
i know what i want to be doing, i love doing it, and i can do it
i'm good at it
i can't imagine doing anything else
i don't even know how to do anything else
right now though i'm not doing a single thing i want to be doing
right now i'm just killing time and praying for the days to pass until something better happens.
i don't know if i have the energy to keep trying things that really aren't working
and really, i don't know what more i could do that i haven't done.
i'm going to be 25 next month, and that feels old to me.
too old to be killing time
especially if i'm not on the road to something.
lord won't you send me a sign cause i just gotta know if i'm wasting my time