grab your headphones and we'll party together................
TItle: Leadja Pa Jaybomb's Playlist
Author: paperhat_pop
Pairing: Jaebum and Junho
Genre: Oneshot PG13
Summary: Jay thought it was best if he didn't show his feelings, but what he kept hidden in was only killing him.
Wrote this for a friend of mine. I killed it T__T. I suck at writing lyrical ways, i don't even know what the correct form of it is called, but lol writing this was harder than i thought. please go easy on me, first time ever writing something based on song lyrics and i failed terribly.
Leadja Pa Jaybomb’s Play list
ft. park jaebum & lee junho
10점 만점에 10점 - His appearance from behind distresses a person. It keeps making a kind of me into having a bad heart.
Park Jaebum knew there was something more than the crystal eye smile Lee Junho always had every time their eyes meet. He had always thought the little kid looked a lot like that Rain dude, but it wasn’t that, that drew Jaebum to him. He never quite fully understood why Junho was the prime target of ass slapping. From his poor Korean he did somehow managed to pick up the nickname the other trainees gave the younger boy; Speed bump. Jaebum was a little late at knowing why others had called Junho that, his view from behind was a perfect 10. No man should have a perfectly plump bottom like his, but Jaebum didn’t mind he sort of liked it. When Jaebum had the chance, he joined the others in their little game of “Attacking Lee Junho’s Ass” and he found the younger’s ass was definitely worth slapping.
Angel - His hand which lifted me up when things got hard. I like it, I really like him.
Everyone knew Jaebum had his limits when speaking in Korean, and though he did have Taekyeon to translate or help him here and there, he somehow liked it better when Junho helped him. Although, Junho did try his best at explaining with his very limited English he learned in school and had picked up from Nichkhun. Junho helped Jay with his Korean homework and in return Jay would teach him some bboy moves. Learning Korean and bboy came naturally to the two, there would be some frustrations from time to time when Junho says a word in Korean that Jay doesn’t understand, or when Jay accidentally starts spitting out English. They eventually learned how to understand one another by using their body language and hand gestures.
Only You - Only you, if its not you I can’t be fixed. I can’t bring myself to smile again. It’s only you my baby, it’s only you.
The long years of training and debuting in the same group gradually made them closer. Jaebum was used to the younger boy’s presence, and when he wasn’t around he felt uneasy. He didn’t like it when Junho smiled his charming eye smile to the other members, or when Junho was too far for Jaebum to see him. He can’t seem to bring himself to smile when Junho’s enjoying the company of someone else and had already forgotten about him.
Again & Again - What kind of medicine are you, that I can’t give it up. Even without me knowing, I keep yearning for you, and eventually look for you again.
Jaebum faked a smile forcing his eyes to ignore the presence of Junho. He eventually felt better and a bit proud of himself when he was able to escape such distress of ignoration. His time with Junho was shortening, and he found Junho slowly obscuring from his side. He should have known this was a forbidden love, and he should have known he was only making a fool out of himself. He felt himself crawling back on his feet when he thought he was doing well at recovering, but the moment Junho called his name with such confectionary it broke all of Park Jaebum’s boundaries. He became someone, even he, himself can’t recognized, fragile. There was a desperation of yearning Jaebum had, it must have been his smile or the way he looked at Jaebum with his soothing eyes that was able to make Jaebum feel.........special.
니가 밉다 - I hate you so much I could die. I hate you so much, I hate myself so much I could go crazy, I hate myself. I, I hate myself for being like this.
Jaebum hates himself for being like this, he hates how he can’t freely express himself. He hates Junho for making him feel like a vulnerable man. He hates it even more that Junho doesn’t know how much he is loved by Jay. Why must Junho be so intimate with the others, but never with Jay? Why does he have to stare at Jay and send him all those signals that makes Jay confused. His heart is stubborn, it wont listen to what he has to say, its only searching for Junho. Jay hates everything. Jay hates Junho and this moronic love he has for him.
돌아올지도 몰라 - I was happy just being together. I was happy just looking at you, I feel as I have the whole world, it was like that.
Jaebum takes it all back. He doesn’t hate Junho, no, he’s satisfied as long as Junho is still by his side, even if the young boy doesn’t know how Jaebum feels like. He’s happy as long as he is still able to witness those charming eye smiles that gives him the strength to continue breathing. It’s okay if Junho is having fun with the other members or if Taekyeon slaps his ass one too many time, as long as Jaebum is still able to see Junho.
Heartbeat - No matter who I meet, I can’t open up one part of my heart, and I keep your place empty.
Jaebum told himself to move on and meet new people. No matter who he met, men or female, the plaque scar remains in his heart, the heart that Lee Junho took and never returned. Every person he met can’t compare to Junho, it’s not the same, instead it was completely different from how he had saw it. He thought meeting new people would ease him, cure him, instead it only reminded him more of Junho. No one can make his heart completely stop the way Junho did. Jay wants to forget, he’s pushing himself, but inside his heart lies a name deeply engraved, Lee Junho.
BACK2U - I’m trapped inside the same lies and loneliness everyday.
Jaebum continues to lie and lie, he tells himself his fine, and he will do so much better without the young boy. All lies. He pretends to not notice the young boy, and pretends to not care anymore. He starts to be rude and comes off rough whenever Junho is near him. He lied and yelled the words he never meant, he pushes Junho away refusing to be anywhere near him. He pretends to be tough, but inside his heart is slowly rotting away, as he live in his own lies.
기다리다 지친다 - Even as a day passes, I can’t forget you. Even if a month passes, I can’t let you go. Do you know my heart that still wants you?
Jaebum cried as he note Junho has long forgotten about him. No longer will the sweet smiles that strengthens him come his way, the voice that calls his name with such grace, and the warmth of Junho’s body. Jaebum’s eyes redden from the tears that have been hidden for too long. Like a needle pricking through his heart, he holds closely to his chest as he see’s another man embrace Junho. He held his hand to his eyes as he could still feel the warmth of Junho’s touch at the tip of his fingertips, remember the titillate sensation.
너에게 미쳤었다- As you turn your back, the whole world become clouded.
Jaebum’s heart plunged as Junho turned his back away, not acknowledging the presence of Jaebum. He saw nothing, but the pitch dark sky surrounding him as he watch the young boy walk away. He bit his bottom lip to prevent his tears from falling in public. Is this the end? Will Jaebum never get the chance to tell Junho how much he loves him. How much Jaebum prayed to wake up every morning and have Junho by his side. He cursed himself for being such a fool to let the only person in this world who understood him the most slip out of his hand. Junho had always been by his side, and had always cheered him on, but all Jaebum has ever done was push the young boy away because of his longing love for him. His heart ache as it screams for Junho’s name. His hands are shaking, his legs speaking a mind of its own, took heavy steps forward. He felt like a toddler barely learning how to walk, his heavy feet pushed to move forward, and lead himself running to catch him. Jaebum reached for Junho’s wrist pulling him into a hug as their bodies clammed into each other, and Jaebum felt his heart grabbed Junho’s.
All Night Long - Now, relax as I hold you in my arms. Close your eyes, and count one, two, three, four, as you count to ten, I’ll take you to my room.
Everything that happened last night was a dream. His sweet lips that Jaebum had dreamed of tasting, their bodies colliding with each other as soft moans roamed the room, the tender touch of Junho’s delicate thighs, the strawberry taste of his skin, and the mark Jaebum had left on him were all too similar to the many fantasies Jaebum have had. He knew the moment he opened his eyes, it was a dream all along, and he’ll feel sick.
Afraid to open his eyes to face reality, he deeply breathed before opening one eye to a sound of a groaning noise. His eyes shift down to his bare chest, it wasn’t a dream after all. His sleepy angel, Lee Junho was sleeping on his chest, and their hands were locked together. Jaebum placed a soft kiss on the sleeping boy’s head as he pressed their naked bodies closer.
Author: paperhat_pop
Pairing: Jaebum and Junho
Genre: Oneshot PG13
Summary: Jay thought it was best if he didn't show his feelings, but what he kept hidden in was only killing him.
Wrote this for a friend of mine. I killed it T__T. I suck at writing lyrical ways, i don't even know what the correct form of it is called, but lol writing this was harder than i thought. please go easy on me, first time ever writing something based on song lyrics and i failed terribly.
Leadja Pa Jaybomb’s Play list
ft. park jaebum & lee junho
10점 만점에 10점 - His appearance from behind distresses a person. It keeps making a kind of me into having a bad heart.
Park Jaebum knew there was something more than the crystal eye smile Lee Junho always had every time their eyes meet. He had always thought the little kid looked a lot like that Rain dude, but it wasn’t that, that drew Jaebum to him. He never quite fully understood why Junho was the prime target of ass slapping. From his poor Korean he did somehow managed to pick up the nickname the other trainees gave the younger boy; Speed bump. Jaebum was a little late at knowing why others had called Junho that, his view from behind was a perfect 10. No man should have a perfectly plump bottom like his, but Jaebum didn’t mind he sort of liked it. When Jaebum had the chance, he joined the others in their little game of “Attacking Lee Junho’s Ass” and he found the younger’s ass was definitely worth slapping.
Angel - His hand which lifted me up when things got hard. I like it, I really like him.
Everyone knew Jaebum had his limits when speaking in Korean, and though he did have Taekyeon to translate or help him here and there, he somehow liked it better when Junho helped him. Although, Junho did try his best at explaining with his very limited English he learned in school and had picked up from Nichkhun. Junho helped Jay with his Korean homework and in return Jay would teach him some bboy moves. Learning Korean and bboy came naturally to the two, there would be some frustrations from time to time when Junho says a word in Korean that Jay doesn’t understand, or when Jay accidentally starts spitting out English. They eventually learned how to understand one another by using their body language and hand gestures.
Only You - Only you, if its not you I can’t be fixed. I can’t bring myself to smile again. It’s only you my baby, it’s only you.
The long years of training and debuting in the same group gradually made them closer. Jaebum was used to the younger boy’s presence, and when he wasn’t around he felt uneasy. He didn’t like it when Junho smiled his charming eye smile to the other members, or when Junho was too far for Jaebum to see him. He can’t seem to bring himself to smile when Junho’s enjoying the company of someone else and had already forgotten about him.
Again & Again - What kind of medicine are you, that I can’t give it up. Even without me knowing, I keep yearning for you, and eventually look for you again.
Jaebum faked a smile forcing his eyes to ignore the presence of Junho. He eventually felt better and a bit proud of himself when he was able to escape such distress of ignoration. His time with Junho was shortening, and he found Junho slowly obscuring from his side. He should have known this was a forbidden love, and he should have known he was only making a fool out of himself. He felt himself crawling back on his feet when he thought he was doing well at recovering, but the moment Junho called his name with such confectionary it broke all of Park Jaebum’s boundaries. He became someone, even he, himself can’t recognized, fragile. There was a desperation of yearning Jaebum had, it must have been his smile or the way he looked at Jaebum with his soothing eyes that was able to make Jaebum feel.........special.
니가 밉다 - I hate you so much I could die. I hate you so much, I hate myself so much I could go crazy, I hate myself. I, I hate myself for being like this.
Jaebum hates himself for being like this, he hates how he can’t freely express himself. He hates Junho for making him feel like a vulnerable man. He hates it even more that Junho doesn’t know how much he is loved by Jay. Why must Junho be so intimate with the others, but never with Jay? Why does he have to stare at Jay and send him all those signals that makes Jay confused. His heart is stubborn, it wont listen to what he has to say, its only searching for Junho. Jay hates everything. Jay hates Junho and this moronic love he has for him.
돌아올지도 몰라 - I was happy just being together. I was happy just looking at you, I feel as I have the whole world, it was like that.
Jaebum takes it all back. He doesn’t hate Junho, no, he’s satisfied as long as Junho is still by his side, even if the young boy doesn’t know how Jaebum feels like. He’s happy as long as he is still able to witness those charming eye smiles that gives him the strength to continue breathing. It’s okay if Junho is having fun with the other members or if Taekyeon slaps his ass one too many time, as long as Jaebum is still able to see Junho.
Heartbeat - No matter who I meet, I can’t open up one part of my heart, and I keep your place empty.
Jaebum told himself to move on and meet new people. No matter who he met, men or female, the plaque scar remains in his heart, the heart that Lee Junho took and never returned. Every person he met can’t compare to Junho, it’s not the same, instead it was completely different from how he had saw it. He thought meeting new people would ease him, cure him, instead it only reminded him more of Junho. No one can make his heart completely stop the way Junho did. Jay wants to forget, he’s pushing himself, but inside his heart lies a name deeply engraved, Lee Junho.
BACK2U - I’m trapped inside the same lies and loneliness everyday.
Jaebum continues to lie and lie, he tells himself his fine, and he will do so much better without the young boy. All lies. He pretends to not notice the young boy, and pretends to not care anymore. He starts to be rude and comes off rough whenever Junho is near him. He lied and yelled the words he never meant, he pushes Junho away refusing to be anywhere near him. He pretends to be tough, but inside his heart is slowly rotting away, as he live in his own lies.
기다리다 지친다 - Even as a day passes, I can’t forget you. Even if a month passes, I can’t let you go. Do you know my heart that still wants you?
Jaebum cried as he note Junho has long forgotten about him. No longer will the sweet smiles that strengthens him come his way, the voice that calls his name with such grace, and the warmth of Junho’s body. Jaebum’s eyes redden from the tears that have been hidden for too long. Like a needle pricking through his heart, he holds closely to his chest as he see’s another man embrace Junho. He held his hand to his eyes as he could still feel the warmth of Junho’s touch at the tip of his fingertips, remember the titillate sensation.
너에게 미쳤었다- As you turn your back, the whole world become clouded.
Jaebum’s heart plunged as Junho turned his back away, not acknowledging the presence of Jaebum. He saw nothing, but the pitch dark sky surrounding him as he watch the young boy walk away. He bit his bottom lip to prevent his tears from falling in public. Is this the end? Will Jaebum never get the chance to tell Junho how much he loves him. How much Jaebum prayed to wake up every morning and have Junho by his side. He cursed himself for being such a fool to let the only person in this world who understood him the most slip out of his hand. Junho had always been by his side, and had always cheered him on, but all Jaebum has ever done was push the young boy away because of his longing love for him. His heart ache as it screams for Junho’s name. His hands are shaking, his legs speaking a mind of its own, took heavy steps forward. He felt like a toddler barely learning how to walk, his heavy feet pushed to move forward, and lead himself running to catch him. Jaebum reached for Junho’s wrist pulling him into a hug as their bodies clammed into each other, and Jaebum felt his heart grabbed Junho’s.
All Night Long - Now, relax as I hold you in my arms. Close your eyes, and count one, two, three, four, as you count to ten, I’ll take you to my room.
Everything that happened last night was a dream. His sweet lips that Jaebum had dreamed of tasting, their bodies colliding with each other as soft moans roamed the room, the tender touch of Junho’s delicate thighs, the strawberry taste of his skin, and the mark Jaebum had left on him were all too similar to the many fantasies Jaebum have had. He knew the moment he opened his eyes, it was a dream all along, and he’ll feel sick.
Afraid to open his eyes to face reality, he deeply breathed before opening one eye to a sound of a groaning noise. His eyes shift down to his bare chest, it wasn’t a dream after all. His sleepy angel, Lee Junho was sleeping on his chest, and their hands were locked together. Jaebum placed a soft kiss on the sleeping boy’s head as he pressed their naked bodies closer.