Emails on Christmas 1/1
Title: Emails on Christmas
Pairing: Kyuhyun/Sungmin
Genre: fluff, romance
Rating: PG
Summary: Christmas won't be the same without you.
Seoul, South Korea
December 3, 2012 18:45
Kyuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~~!!!
How are you? It’s getting colder every day. Well, the last time I emailed you was three weeks ago. Sorry, I was stuck up in lessons and rehearsals and projects and performances and the like.
I dyed my hair blond by the way... It’s shiny and cute! I know you don’t like me dyeing my hair, but... hehehe. Everyone told me it looks nice. :)
My professor was sick and class got cancelled the last minute. I was out already so I just dropped by the usual coffee shop. Ryeowook, you know him right? That small giddy boy who works at the shop, he gave me his peppermint mocha flavoured coffee. It's a new recipe and I love it. It reminds me of you, you like mints.
Remember the day we first met? It was at the train station, I was so sleepy, and it was so cold I was tripping over the platform. You took my arm and handed me this mint candy.
"Don't fall asleep when you wait for the train," you told me. "You might never wake up." I found you mean that time. Of course your intention was good but I was so tired back then. I'm glad I accepted the candy though..........
So going back, the peppermint mocha was good. It was steamy hot and goes best with my favourite cheesecake. I sat there for two hours, not really doing anything. And they gave me this candy cane, I didn't eat it, I hung it on the windowsill. When you return, you have to try that peppermint drink, I hope it'll not be a special Christmas edition or maybe we could ask Ryeowook to make an exception. He's really nice.
...
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Nothing interesting happened after that. Well, I just went home and read my books, study a little, watched TV, and then... well I went on the internet to check what's going on in California... I realized not much as well. How did your day go? Was school harsh? Or you were too harsh? Hehe...
I miss you... T_T
I miss you so much. :(
Hyuk told me I'll get used to it but it seems I can't. It is winter now, and we're just waiting for the snow to fall. It... It will be my first snow without you. O_O First snow alone in four years. Call me mushy but it'll be your first too. Do you have plans on Christmas? Mom and Dad are visiting Jin in Japan so... yeah.
I miss you, eight months and I'm missing you so badly. I don't know. I'm missing you always even though we share small messages over Facebook and thru email.
Am I PMSing? haha, kidding. Maybe I'm just missing you more tonight because... well, there isn't any reason. I just miss you.
I love you.
I'll see you soon.
San Francisco, CA
December 5, 2012 8:12
Hi, baby!
I miss you too! How are you doing? Sorry I wasn’t able to send you an email as well. But we can do it regularly, well, I finally got a good internet at the dorm and so I can check out my mails more frequently!
You dyed you hair again. :(
T_T
Kidding! It’s fine, you are fine whenever, wherever, whatever. :D Too bad I won't be seeing that. Did you do it for a performance?
Well, I'm kinda jealous, there's no snow here. It's just...cold, not really cold. I don't get to freeze at night and cuddle with you. I'm missing the snow already; remember when we would usually wait for the first snow together? :(
I'm going to miss that this year. I feel sad.
But at least you get to see it. Can you take a photo of yourself when that happens? Well, it is December so it's anytime now right?
How was the coffee? I think I need to taste that... but, I'll be back on spring.
Why does this exchange program last a year? In other schools it only lasts six months.
But, promise me okay... that coffee, we'll have it again when I return. It's mint so I'll like it, even though it's coffee.
Haha, do you remember our second meeting? You were so thankful back then, and yeah, you offered me the drink.
"Oh it's you!" You almost screamed. Min, we were at the reader's cafe back then and everyone was looking at you already. It was embarrassing but you approached me with a cup on your hand. We were in high school back then, wow, we're old! Your voice was squeaky and it was weird I didn't find it irritating, maybe because you were so cute back then. :)
You're probably blushing now, but you know, Min... That was the first time I drank coffee... Yup, I was seventeen and it was my first time to drink coffee. :)
You didn't know! Ha~! I didn't tell you but well... I was kinda shy because I didn't want your efforts to go to waste. You were so grateful and I couldn't deny you.
Well, that's when our life together started, so... I don't regret anything. A mint candy and a cup of coffee... I'm glad. ^^
Oh, professor's here. I miss you, baby! I'll see you soon. Don't be sad okay. Smile, you know I love your smile. :)
Seoul, South Korea
December 6, 2012 21:22
You didn't tell me about the coffee! O_O I didn't know! But you're drinking coffee now, I'm glad! :D I love coffee! You know how I would always mumble about the bittersweet taste coffee has. It’s so like life, bitter and yet sweet. Hahaha, what? XDD
Oh!
It snowed today!
Here's my photo as you've requested! ^^ I dyed my hair black again! Well, you didn't get to see me blond in person I'll just do that when you return, if you want. and yes, it was for a performance. I just had it for two weeks! I keep on dyeing my hair they'll all die out soon! hehehe~
Oh yeah, it doesn't snow there. :( That's sad. Snow is cute although....... the snow outside is still dirty, just heaps of white. I'm wearing our sweater today. The blue one inside and the pink one on top. It's our couple sweater so I love it! I decided that from now one I'll be wearing our clothes together, those you've left here. So that, I get a piece of you everyday this winter. It'll be very cute and corny but I don't care. ^^
You said you didn't like winter. Remember? When you were making that artsy painting at the field? You were doing spring and I was bugging you to do winter. You said it doesn't have emotion, only vastness and coldness. The pallid hues glued to the season could never bring light. It's a time of melancholy. You told me spring brings epiphany, new life, and hope. Well, you were right. But winter brings warmth. For every cold there is heat, there is comfort. The snow is soft and white. It is simple and comforting.
I was too insistent back then; I didn't realize I'll be feeling cold on winter as well. :(
I'm feeling it now. The loneliness.... O_O
We were getting closer back then when we had that conversation. We were friends but... well I kinda had crush on you then, don't laugh!
Stop laughing!
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T_T
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Are you not laughing now?
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Kyu.... I have a question. I never had the courage to ask this. I mean... we've been together for four years and yet, I have never asked you this before, face to face.
Why...
Why did you fall in love with me? How...? Why? I mean, don’t take this wrong, but, I'm just curious. I'm no one, and yet.... you...
Ack! Why am I asking you this? I'm weird. Never mind. hahaha! I just... oh it's snowing hard!!!!
Kyu, you have to see this! :(
We need to see this together I miss you!!
San Francisco, CA
December 12, 2012 20:00
:'(
San Francisco, CA
December 12, 2012 20:14
You cried, didn't you? You cried that night when it snowed so hard.
I cried a while ago too, when I was reading your message.
Min, I miss you, baby. I miss you so much and I really wanted to see the snow in Seoul with you. Why do I have to be so faraway when you’re alone this winter? You don’t know how badly I want to hug you.
You ask me why I love you. I just.... I love you, should there be a reason?
You're Lee Sungmin, and that's why I love you. You're my Lee Sungmin and I'll love you forever.
Ugh.........?
And I kinda figured you had a crush on me back then. You were such a girl back then and I love it! Hihih, you’re cute. You are always cute. It was almost winter when I was finally able to pluck up courage and confess to you, I’m also such a girl! Hahahaha!
Christmas break is very soon! Good luck on your exams, I know you’ll do well. How are the papers? They’re a lot huh? I have a lot too! I finished three and I have two canvases to pass. We can do this, Min. Four more months and we’ll see each other again.
Remember our first Christmas together? We sneaked in the school rooftop and ate donuts and coffee. Two hours later your stomach was growling so hard. Hehehe. You were so cute back then. I love how you blushed so hard and we have to go to the nearest diner and order burgers because you said you wanted burger. Thank God for 24-hour diners huh? :)
Well, there are a lot here in the US, and their burgers are tasty and huge!! You need to have them.
You know what followed after that little trip to the diner. *WINK WINK* Don’t blush now, Min. We were in high school back then and we were.......... impulsive? But I don’t regret anything, and I know you don’t either. It was the best Christmas of my life. I hope it was yours as well. The Christmases that followed were beautiful as well, as long as we’re together.
So, does this mean that this Christmas won’t be too happy for us? Maybe you could go on Skype on that day?
We’re seventeen hours apart, by the way!
I miss you, Min. I miss you so much!
San Francisco, CA
December 14, 2012 17:36
Min.. :( I have something to tell you. Please don’t be mad... please?
A while ago, I was studying at the university cafe. I was alone and then, a girl approached me and started... hitting on me.
WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Don’t be mad. She didn’t know I’m with someone. She just flirted, and I have to make it clear to her that I’m not interested. Min... She was... kinda persistent and asked me where my partner is, of course I told her you’re in Seoul. Well, she...
Don’t be mad. Please...
She.... kissed me.
I’m sorry, Min. I left as soon as she did that. I kinda created a fuss in the cafe and walked away.
Okay, you can be mad at me now. :(
Min, I really am sorry. I know you’ll be frustrated and all. I’m so sorry and I hope you forgive me.
San Francisco, CA
December 14, 2012 20:00
Min? :(
I’m sorry.
San Francisco, CA
December 15, 2012 5:45
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San Francisco, CA
December 15, 2012 12:25
Min...?
San Francisco, CA
December 15, 2012 18:55
I’m sorry, please forgive me.
Seoul, South Korea
December 16, 21:55
:(
San Francisco, CA
December 16, 2012 18:07
Sorry, Min. I really am.
Seoul, South Korea
December 17, 2012 14:09
Kyu... :(
I’m sorry. I was being overly dramatic. I’m not mad anymore, well, I’m not mad at you. More like at the girl. WHO IS SHE ANYWAY? KISSING MY BABY LIKE THAT!!??! >:(
I knew girls can’t be trusted these days. I hope you cleaned your mouth after that kiss coz I’m gonna give you a very long and hot one when I see you again! :(
I miss kissing you and... I’m sorry, Kyu. Sorry I didn't reply to your messages. I’m sorry I’m being such a jealous boy friend. And thank you for telling me the truth, thank you!
Y_Y
This... is so hard. You’re so far and I don’t know what to do anymore.
I realized something.... You know what’s the hardest in the distance we have? It’s not not being able to see you or touch you or hold you or talk to you. The reason is more like.... I can’t experience what you are experiencing and you can’t experience what I am experiencing. You can't feel what I feel and I can't feel what you feel.
The exchange of letters, of words, cannot amount to the smiles and stories we share when we’re together. It can’t surpass that happiness whenever I see myself in your eyes and you in mine.
I love you, Kyu, and I’m sorry for acting so immaturely. Take care of yourself, don’t let those girls bite.
I have my exams this week, I’ll do my best. You do too!
San Francisco, CA
December 17, 2012 11:08
Oh, Min. Thank you! Oh, god, baby I was so scared! I was so worried! I’m so sorry and no, you have the right to be mad. It was my fault, I shouldn't have let her stay long, or I should've left immediately.
Min, I’m so sorry. You know I love you too, so much. And soon, we'll be together again! It won't be long.
Good luck on your exams, baby!
Seoul, South Korea
December 18, 2012 23:39
We'll see each other... it's not that far.
Seoul, South Korea
December 21, 2012 19:37
It's not the end of the world!!!!!
I passed! I passed the midterms and I even got two A's! Christmas break officially starts now. I'm so happy! I can't believe it! I'm making a cake to celebrate tonight. Can you go online by then? I just... I want to see you and share this moment with you? Is that okay? :(
Well, if the time lapse is weird, never mind. I was just thinking. I'll be online by 9pm and wait till around midnight, Seoul time. See you!
San Francisco, CA
December 21, 2012 7:14
Baby?
Sungmin?
Min...?
Min... Baby?
Min! I'm sorry! Oh God, I'm so sorry! It's seven am here. Are you still online? I just saw your message now. :(
Sorry, baby. And congratulations!
Seoul, South Korea
December 22, 2012 15:19
I forgot we have different time zones and how Seoul is seventeen hours ahead of your time. Sorry. :( I didn't think of that when I asked you to go online. You were probably tired.
But thank you, Kyu! I’m so glad I finished the exams already! I can... enjoy the holidays?
Maybe now that I have nothing to do, I could get to send you emails more often! I could piss you like what I always do before. Well, you love it don’t yah? :D
So how did your exams go? Did you beat everyone in your classes like you always do? How were the paintings? Are you sulking in San Francisco to paint? Or are you stuck up in your computer making those graphic designs?
I can imagine you sitting on your usual spot here in the apartment and staring at your laptop for like forever! XDDD
“I’m not!” You’ll reason out. You’ll just tell me you’re thinking or doing something else when in fact you’re just staring at the empty program and then I’ll poke your cheeks and you’ll get mad and chase me around and I’ll throw flour at you... or pans. Then we'll laugh together...
The apartment is too quiet. I’ve been telling that to you for eight months already. Yeah... it is too quiet without you.
Christmas is so near, Kyu! I love you! ^^
Seoul, South Korea
December 22, 2012 15:10
I love you!
Merry Christmas, Kyu!!!!!!!
San Francisco, CA
December 22, 2012 22:00
Min! Exams are over! Finally!!! I miss you too, baby! Two days to go and it’s Christmas! I have received gifts from my classmates. They’re really nice. I got mufflers and English books and plain canvases.
I treated them in a Korean restaurant they loved it! ^_^
Sorry about the other day again. :( Did you finish the cake you made? Or did you give some to Ryeowook and Eunhyuk and Jongwoon and Donghee?
I miss your cooking and you. I’ll be online the whole day on Christmas. I’ll stay here in my room and wait for you.
I love you!
San Francisco, CA
December 23, 2012 15:30
It’s Christmas there tomorrow, Min! It’s only the twenty-third here, just past three in the afternoon. If, i’m calculating correctly, it’s the twenty-fourth there already? Around, 8am? Or not? T_T
Are you not online? I’ll be online until the twenty sixth or maybe until New Year, on your birthday. I bought a present for you already. One for Christmas and one for your birthday, although, I’ll be able to give it to you on April. :(
I’m hibernating in my dorm room until next week, so that I can be online when you’re online. :)
I miss you! Merry Christmas, Min! I LOVE YOU!
San Francisco, CA
December 23, 2012 23:45
You’re preparing for Christmas aren't you!?!?!? You’re too busy! You’re probably cooking right now! You’re making a cake? Spaghetti? Burger? Roasted chicken?
Min... I’m hungry! I want to eat real food, those that you cooked.
You’re still not yet online. :(
San Francisco, CA
December 24, 2012 7:00
MERRY CHRISTMAS MIN! It’s Christmas there already! YEY!! HAPPY CHRISTMAS MIN! I hope you’re enjoying there. Are you at a party? Or did your parents come home suddenly?
Min?
Or... don’t tell me you’re sad... :(
Baby... please... please enjoy your Christmas. I love you!
San Francisco, CA
December 25, 2012 0:00
Merry Christmas, Min.~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Where are you? What are you doing right now? Min...
Min, please, you need to reply to my message I’m getting paranoid right now.
Min... please?
San Francisco, CA
December 25, 2012 11:00
Lee Sungmin! Where are you, for goodness sake!
I’m calling Seoul if I still don’t hear from you in six hours.
San Francisco, CA
December 25, 2012 16:59
That’s it. I’m buying a phone card and calling Seoul.
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Seoul, South Korea
January 4, 2013 15:56
I’m here! I arrived safe and complete!
I can’t believe the one and half week was over! Kyu... It was the best Christmas and New Year I ever had, plus birthday! ^^
Oh, and sorry for scaring you! And least the surprise still worked! It was my Christmas present to you! Oh and, I was lost! At least we still got six hours of Christmas together! I was told I was to arrive 12 in San Francisco! TWELVE NOON! Haha! And then I got lost, thankfully you went out to buy that phone card because I was almost crying in that nearby phone booth! Remind me to study English more! :D
I was scared you're gonna notice my surprise! I was too excited when the Christmas break was over that I can't send coherent emails! ^_^ Good thing you were oh, so oblivious!
Remember about the girl? Well, we've talked about it but you know, I was planning on acting mad until I arrive there but I figured you might flunk your exams.... so.... never mind back to plan A. Too bad, I wasn't able to see that girl! >:D
San Francisco was awesome. It's warm in there but beautiful. We can go back there next time... together. ^^
Kyuhyun, I love you so much. You don’t know how happy I am to see you. I've been saving for that trip ever since you left. I wanted to celebrate Christmas and New Year with you, wherever you are... It's my gift to you. I'm glad, and happy that we get to share this Christmas and New year together, it won't be the same if we weren't together.
Your gifts were wonderful.Your painting is hanging on our bedroom now. It’s the most beautiful painting I've ever seen. I don’t care about those artists and whatnot; I care about you and your works, for me, they're a lot better. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
And the mini San Francisco tram is displayed proudly on our living room. It looks good there. HOHOHOHO~
When I saw you finally in California, you don’t know how happy I am. I was totally frustrated when I got lost, I was almost crying. But, really... I wasn't gonna cry because I'm scared that I'm lost. I was almost crying because I was scared that I won’t be able to celebrate Christmas with you, and I was counting the hours left. Christmas in Korea was over then, and Christmas in California would soon end. I was scared that my efforts of seeing you on Christmas would go to waste.
I was just glad that........ you went out to buy that card. Well, at least you found me. Hehehehe. Fate is still kind! ^^
Three more months, Kyu. Three months, and we’ll be together again!
I miss you already!
You know I love you so much!
San Francisco, CA
January 4, 2013 9:54
Min... I’m glad you’re back and safe.
We’ve talked about everything and you know that this is the best Christmas ever! Saying I'm happy is an understatement Min! You were here... in California with your favorite luggage and sling purse!!! You were here and I thought everything was just some old dream... but... it's not and I couldn't be happier.
You saved so much for this trip, I owe you so much. I'll make it up to you when I return! Now I can't wait! :DD
Sungmin.... baby... ^^
Thank you... Thank you so much!!!
Thank you for making this the best Christmas so far.
I love you.
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Notes: The paragraph spaces and punctuation are there for a reason. I hope they were able to emphasize the feelings and emotions needed, as well as the unspoken words. This is a totally random story. I hope you guys like this.. although I doubt it... This is totally senseless!!! O_O
This is my (not-so-nice) gift for everyone....
MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL~~! I LOVE YOU ALL!!
HAVE AN AWESOME HOLIDAY! ^_^
