Drabble
Sorry for the terrible quality and layout. I'm doing this on my phone.
Here is a little bit of Jiyong suffering, because I think I beat up Seungri enough. :)
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I wish I could tell you the truth. I've said it in my head a hundred times but I still can't manage to say the words out loud. You already look at me like an annoyance to tune out. A stepping stone you only need until you finally make it on your own.
I lay awake at night hoping one day you'll realize that I'm not any of those things. Or at least I never wanted to be. From the moment you walked through the practice room door, I should have known I would spend the rest of my life trying to get to you. Sure, you smile and push back with a laugh of 'hyung~' when I try and kiss or snuggle you. But, I wish you could see that I'm not joking.
Everytime I stare at you, I'm trying to get the courage to pull you close and whisper that I love you so much. But, then you look at me, and smile and I know I can't ruin your dream like that. You love us the way we are.
Just barely friends.
So I stand next to you, and look into your eyes any time I think I can get away with it. I touch you in small ways and hope you shiver in the same why I do whenever you call my name. I watch your face on the computer like a fangirl and hope you'll see me too.
I just need to have you any way I can.
I wish I could say these things out loud but your moving away from me so fast these days. You're off on your own doing projects and flying solo. The other hyungs and I miss you. They are so proud and realize that you need to be on your own, but, me? Seungri-ah, I just need you.
I hope one day you'll need me too.
Here is a little bit of Jiyong suffering, because I think I beat up Seungri enough. :)
~*~
I wish I could tell you the truth. I've said it in my head a hundred times but I still can't manage to say the words out loud. You already look at me like an annoyance to tune out. A stepping stone you only need until you finally make it on your own.
I lay awake at night hoping one day you'll realize that I'm not any of those things. Or at least I never wanted to be. From the moment you walked through the practice room door, I should have known I would spend the rest of my life trying to get to you. Sure, you smile and push back with a laugh of 'hyung~' when I try and kiss or snuggle you. But, I wish you could see that I'm not joking.
Everytime I stare at you, I'm trying to get the courage to pull you close and whisper that I love you so much. But, then you look at me, and smile and I know I can't ruin your dream like that. You love us the way we are.
Just barely friends.
So I stand next to you, and look into your eyes any time I think I can get away with it. I touch you in small ways and hope you shiver in the same why I do whenever you call my name. I watch your face on the computer like a fangirl and hope you'll see me too.
I just need to have you any way I can.
I wish I could say these things out loud but your moving away from me so fast these days. You're off on your own doing projects and flying solo. The other hyungs and I miss you. They are so proud and realize that you need to be on your own, but, me? Seungri-ah, I just need you.
I hope one day you'll need me too.