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Yesterday, apparently, my body tried to 'eject the core'. I'll spare you the description of what happened past 'size of a freaking baseball' and 'owie'. I spent a half hour today trying to convince the telehealth nurse that there's no possible way I could have been pregnant and no, to the best of my recollection, I wasn't recently raped. I'm actually a bit creeped out over how many times she asked that last question. Ok, yeah, maybe I have some psychological femininity issues to deal with, but I think it's more just an issue of taxing my body too much lately. Strangely, that bothers me more. My whole life I've been told that women can't do hard labour, handle stress, extreme sleep deprivation, etc. etc. or else they will damage their 'lady parts'. I always thought this was just a line of gone-with-the-wind-bullshit that sexist men used to explain why women are inferior and sexist women use to get out of pulling their weight. Thing is...shit!...I'm actually wondering if this is true now? It freaking can't be?!! This goes against every fundamental belief about womanhood I have. Sigh, I promised the nice nurse lady that I would make an appointment to see my doctor (did I mention I hate going to the doctors :(), but for the most part I'm Ok. My insides hurt a bit, I feel weak (in more ways than one!) and I feel like covering my ears and screaming NO NO NO NO NO!! for the rest of time :(