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maybe i can feel lighthearted again. saw p for a good 20 hours sunday night -> monday evening. it was fantastic but i'm terrible at saying goodbyes and i always get too emotional. but he called last night right before he got on the plane for oz--- i take that as a good sign and now i have to see what going for 8 days without talking to him is really like- since neither of us could get very far last time we tried to do a break ourselves. i can't help it if i really dislike school right now, and am pretty tired of iv right now and i just want to move on in my life and see whats next after ucsb/iv.
overall- honestly- i miss him and i want to live in the same town he does again. i'm tired of the long distance because when it's bad it hurts and when it's good it almost hurts more because i miss him so much. and will it really all work out if i do move back to sd? what if i don't mesh with his friends, his life etc. maybe i'm just meant to be his semi-imaginary girlfriend.
ugh too early in the morning for this kind of stuff.
we don't change our calendar pages anymore/ out of fear/ what we don't know only hurt us/ waiting so long for you to change/ waiting so long for you today
overall- honestly- i miss him and i want to live in the same town he does again. i'm tired of the long distance because when it's bad it hurts and when it's good it almost hurts more because i miss him so much. and will it really all work out if i do move back to sd? what if i don't mesh with his friends, his life etc. maybe i'm just meant to be his semi-imaginary girlfriend.
ugh too early in the morning for this kind of stuff.
we don't change our calendar pages anymore/ out of fear/ what we don't know only hurt us/ waiting so long for you to change/ waiting so long for you today