Living a lie - jongyu [1/1]
living a lie | Jongyu, Jongkey | pg| 366
au, angst | unbeta-ed
note: Since I finished my fic for kpop_bigbang I can finally write smaller things again. yay! (my mind was too occupied with this one story, I couldn't write anything.) so here we go, a Jongyu/Jongkey drabble I wrote that just now in a few minutes cause I felt like it.
Jinki craves for Jonghyun.
He sees the way Jonghyuns touches linger when he is with Kibum, how his eyes sparkle when the younger tells him something, even when they fight there is always this something that Jonghyun never shows Jinki, or anyone else. There is a certain kind of passion whenever he is together with Kibum, a passion Jonghyun has long lost for Jinki. At least that is how Jinki feels.
And after a while he doesn’t just feel it anymore, it becomes obvious. Jonghyun disappears for days without saying anything, he barely touches Jinki anymore, he doesn’t talk to him, it’s as if Jinki has become a stranger.
“Just leave this jerk.” Is what Taemin says every time he has to embrace Jinki; fragile and broken in his arms when Jonghyun disappears. Jinki doesn’t answer, he doesn’t have to because to him and he guesses also to Taemin the answer is obvious.
One night Jinki is lying in his bed, he should have been sleeping for hours now but he can’t, not when the familiar warmth he so desperately tries to keep is not there. He hears the door open and slam closed and a few minutes later Jonghyun is in the bed, he smells like smoke and alcohol and something Jinki doesn’t want to know, or he knows but tries his hardest to deny it. Jinki forces his eyes shut, forces his hands not to tremble and the tears not to fall. Jonghyun hugs him from behind and though Jinki stiffens the younger man doesn’t seem to realize that Jinki is awake. Jonghyun buries his nose in Jinki’s neck, his hot breath making Jinki shiver very so slightly. “I love you.” Jonghyun says and Jinki wants to believe him, he really wants to but he knows it’s a lie when a few minutes later Jonghyun is asleep, mumbling Kibum’s name between soft singing. He knows and finally lets the tears fall from his eyes.
And Jinki wonders how long he will be able to keep up with this. He wonders how much longer his heart wills him to stay by Jonghyun’s side and how much longer will Jonghyun force himself to live a lie.
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