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Basic Stuff
Name:Lethe, Teme, Shanna, Crystal, the list goes on.
Age:23
Sex (not the recreational kind):Female
Your Personality
How would you describe yourself? That can actually be a really tough question. I can be pretty dopey and thick headed sometimes because I tend to be off in my own mind and not paying attention. I try to come off as attentive and supportive to my friends but secretly some of them I don't even listen to what they have to say anymore. I just answer them on auto-pilot while worrying more about my own life things. I tend to think I have an overly cynical view of the world and feel older than I am a large portion of the time.
How would others describe you? Other people see me so differently sometimes I really don't know how it happens. People tend to describe me with words like naive, cheerful, supportive, and things along that vein. Most of my friends are younger than me but find themselves feeling they must "take care of me" because I apparently have little real world common sense. They know I'd be lost without them and sometimes perhaps take advantage of this fact.
What are you passionate about? Rather, what are some things you enjoy? I enjoy lots of things. I don't cook as often as I used to but it's something I love to do. Especially when no one else is home and you're cooking dinner for when they return I've always loved to play house. I really love music too though and spend a large portion of my day at least listening to music. I'm also a really big fan of this season of American Idol too. I'm normally not but it's just blown me away this year. I really like fashion too and I've been known to sit and design outfits and things for online games perhaps a little obsessively. Yet my own wardrobe is lacking because 1. I am poor and 2. my self esteem doesn't merit myself worthy decent clothes
What are some things that get on your nerves? What could you do without?
Gum. Gum chewing is gross and most of my family seems to chew it all the time. Don't they know how gross that looks? Also the belief that just because it's different is wrong. Why can't everyone all get along?
Do you have any talents? What are you good at?
Cooking, some say singing, honestly perhaps I take the saying "there's always someone better" to heart a little too much as I've very little faith in my own abilities because of this.
What are you not so good at?
Sports. But that's largely because I've got a physical disability that disables me from doing them. I'm also apparently a really bad liar. Typically even people on the internet can tell when I'm lying. It's frustrating.
Relationships
What do you look for in a significant other? Physically? Mentally?
Physically I'm not all that hung up on how people look. I will admit that with females the more curves the better. Skinny women I don't find attractive in the least. Men? I used to think I don't like muscular guys but apparently I do somewhat. So.. it really depends. So long as they're clean cut and not balding I guess? Mentally I'd like someone smart who really knows where they're going in life because I have no real direction and I guess I kind of want to be dragged along with them. That's sad isn't it?
"Love" -- how do you look at it?
My mother has been married three times. I remember the second, she's still in the third, and I'm the product of a boyfriend. Needless to say somewhere along the way my ideals for love got crushed a little. Now honestly I believe it's pure and true, but that perhaps it doesn't exist for me because I don't deserve it. Thinking like this has gotten me into some one night stand situations that messed my self esteem up even worse. The first time I crashed bad thinking I was worthless and no better than a two dollar street worker. Apparently it's become a habit though, seeking physical to try and make up for the lack of emotional love in my life.
How do you feel about cheating? Have you ever considered it?
I have a long distance girlfriend. She's great and I care about her very much; however, we've currently got an open relationship so there's no real way I can cheat on her. I do believe that without a partner's consent you shouldn't be seeing other people. That's just wrong and I'd never do that.
How do you view friendship?
I've spent most of my life without them. I'm starting to develop some now and I wouldn't trade them for all the money in the world. Given a choice, would you prefer many acquaintances or few friends? I'd take a core of friends who I knew really well and vice versa than knowing everyone shallowly. Concerning friends, could you leave them to pursue your goals and dreams?Most of my friends are online so.. kind of hard to leave them. Would I leave my home and move on to bigger and better things? In a heartbeat, I'm sure they'd understand.
Are you more faithful or more cynical of others?
I have a friend I've known six years now. She's probably not a good influence for me and tends to start drama quite a bit but I've known her so long that the idea of no longer being friends with her permanently just makes me feel bad.
Other Stuff
A picture is optional, but what of your looks?
I've got short hair that was really blonde when I was little but it's practically a light brown now. I don't know what else to say so have a lousy webcam picture. I apologize in advance.
If you were in a band, who else would be in it? What instrument would you play? Why?
I play the piano already though that's not quite the same as the keyboard. I'd probably be on vocals more than anything else though, which is where I'd truly want to be. Who else? I dont' know any other local musician types really so I don't quite get this question part.
At a live show... What kind of fan are you? A wallflower? Part of the mosh pit?
I've never been to a live show but I'd imagine I'd be trying to be either a wallflower or somewhere between the two extremes.
Could you sum up who you are in a single song? Your Glasses by Meria Mena
What are (some of) your favorite lyrics?
There's a river flowing through me .. it knows me
its currents, they control my emotions
but there's just one stream that evades me, escapes me
it overflows when my heart's left open
like a flower under rain
like a child's first day
like a story's first page
watch our love come to life
love is not a thing to rush
it's a feeling you should trust
it'll be that way with us
watch our love come to life
come to life come to life
watch our love come to life
there's not point in our predictions
or wishing .. the paths we're on are somehow connected
cause you can't see around the corner
you wanna...cause you're so afraid life'll leave you rejected
when you least expect it
your feelings.. are the one thing
out of my control.. it's not in my hands
not knowing, is killing me
where's the way inside your soul.. we gotta let it grow
Come to Life by Marie Digby Yes I used most the entire song but the words are so very important to me. Sorry!
Your three vote links:
1, 2, 3
Anything else?Thanks for taking the time to read and vote. I really appreciate it! Edit: I don't know what happened to the formatting. Sorry!
Age:23
Sex (not the recreational kind):Female
Your Personality
How would you describe yourself? That can actually be a really tough question. I can be pretty dopey and thick headed sometimes because I tend to be off in my own mind and not paying attention. I try to come off as attentive and supportive to my friends but secretly some of them I don't even listen to what they have to say anymore. I just answer them on auto-pilot while worrying more about my own life things. I tend to think I have an overly cynical view of the world and feel older than I am a large portion of the time.
How would others describe you? Other people see me so differently sometimes I really don't know how it happens. People tend to describe me with words like naive, cheerful, supportive, and things along that vein. Most of my friends are younger than me but find themselves feeling they must "take care of me" because I apparently have little real world common sense. They know I'd be lost without them and sometimes perhaps take advantage of this fact.
What are you passionate about? Rather, what are some things you enjoy? I enjoy lots of things. I don't cook as often as I used to but it's something I love to do. Especially when no one else is home and you're cooking dinner for when they return I've always loved to play house. I really love music too though and spend a large portion of my day at least listening to music. I'm also a really big fan of this season of American Idol too. I'm normally not but it's just blown me away this year. I really like fashion too and I've been known to sit and design outfits and things for online games perhaps a little obsessively. Yet my own wardrobe is lacking because 1. I am poor and 2. my self esteem doesn't merit myself worthy decent clothes
What are some things that get on your nerves? What could you do without?
Gum. Gum chewing is gross and most of my family seems to chew it all the time. Don't they know how gross that looks? Also the belief that just because it's different is wrong. Why can't everyone all get along?
Do you have any talents? What are you good at?
Cooking, some say singing, honestly perhaps I take the saying "there's always someone better" to heart a little too much as I've very little faith in my own abilities because of this.
What are you not so good at?
Sports. But that's largely because I've got a physical disability that disables me from doing them. I'm also apparently a really bad liar. Typically even people on the internet can tell when I'm lying. It's frustrating.
Relationships
What do you look for in a significant other? Physically? Mentally?
Physically I'm not all that hung up on how people look. I will admit that with females the more curves the better. Skinny women I don't find attractive in the least. Men? I used to think I don't like muscular guys but apparently I do somewhat. So.. it really depends. So long as they're clean cut and not balding I guess? Mentally I'd like someone smart who really knows where they're going in life because I have no real direction and I guess I kind of want to be dragged along with them. That's sad isn't it?
"Love" -- how do you look at it?
My mother has been married three times. I remember the second, she's still in the third, and I'm the product of a boyfriend. Needless to say somewhere along the way my ideals for love got crushed a little. Now honestly I believe it's pure and true, but that perhaps it doesn't exist for me because I don't deserve it. Thinking like this has gotten me into some one night stand situations that messed my self esteem up even worse. The first time I crashed bad thinking I was worthless and no better than a two dollar street worker. Apparently it's become a habit though, seeking physical to try and make up for the lack of emotional love in my life.
How do you feel about cheating? Have you ever considered it?
I have a long distance girlfriend. She's great and I care about her very much; however, we've currently got an open relationship so there's no real way I can cheat on her. I do believe that without a partner's consent you shouldn't be seeing other people. That's just wrong and I'd never do that.
How do you view friendship?
I've spent most of my life without them. I'm starting to develop some now and I wouldn't trade them for all the money in the world. Given a choice, would you prefer many acquaintances or few friends? I'd take a core of friends who I knew really well and vice versa than knowing everyone shallowly. Concerning friends, could you leave them to pursue your goals and dreams?Most of my friends are online so.. kind of hard to leave them. Would I leave my home and move on to bigger and better things? In a heartbeat, I'm sure they'd understand.
Are you more faithful or more cynical of others?
I have a friend I've known six years now. She's probably not a good influence for me and tends to start drama quite a bit but I've known her so long that the idea of no longer being friends with her permanently just makes me feel bad.
Other Stuff
A picture is optional, but what of your looks?
I've got short hair that was really blonde when I was little but it's practically a light brown now. I don't know what else to say so have a lousy webcam picture. I apologize in advance.
If you were in a band, who else would be in it? What instrument would you play? Why?
I play the piano already though that's not quite the same as the keyboard. I'd probably be on vocals more than anything else though, which is where I'd truly want to be. Who else? I dont' know any other local musician types really so I don't quite get this question part.
At a live show... What kind of fan are you? A wallflower? Part of the mosh pit?
I've never been to a live show but I'd imagine I'd be trying to be either a wallflower or somewhere between the two extremes.
Could you sum up who you are in a single song? Your Glasses by Meria Mena
What are (some of) your favorite lyrics?
There's a river flowing through me .. it knows me
its currents, they control my emotions
but there's just one stream that evades me, escapes me
it overflows when my heart's left open
like a flower under rain
like a child's first day
like a story's first page
watch our love come to life
love is not a thing to rush
it's a feeling you should trust
it'll be that way with us
watch our love come to life
come to life come to life
watch our love come to life
there's not point in our predictions
or wishing .. the paths we're on are somehow connected
cause you can't see around the corner
you wanna...cause you're so afraid life'll leave you rejected
when you least expect it
your feelings.. are the one thing
out of my control.. it's not in my hands
not knowing, is killing me
where's the way inside your soul.. we gotta let it grow
Come to Life by Marie Digby Yes I used most the entire song but the words are so very important to me. Sorry!
Your three vote links:
1, 2, 3
Anything else?Thanks for taking the time to read and vote. I really appreciate it! Edit: I don't know what happened to the formatting. Sorry!