⇒ 060
[ the following is written rather than dictated like normal, though joshua's handwriting is unmistakable to those who know him. there are occasionally blotches where his pen has been resting for too long, but otherwise nothing strange about it if you exclude the subject matter; ]
I heard about what happened. I'm sorry I wasn't at the funeral, but I knew I didn't belong there. For awhile now I've realized I don't belong at the castle at all. And not in the way most of you would think... I know you all think that.
I don't mean I belong at home. There's nothing for me at home. I'll simply go back to being a [ there is almost a minute's pause after this before the writing continues ] monster.
I've left, and I didn't say goodbye because I knew it would be too difficult. I'm writing to let you know I've gone into the Dead Zone. Only a couple of you know I've been considering this, but I didn't want to make it public until I was sure of what I wanted.
Out here I feel more free. I know I'm not a danger to anybody, and I'm not sick. Even better, I get to explore, which is something I've always wanted. But don't think I'm going to become like the others.
[ another long pause, the ink blot growing until he moves the pen once more ]
I'm not going to lose track of any of you, or forget about you. I'm going to see if I can find something useful for everyone out here. Maybe I can locate a power source that you can use out here. Maybe I can discover something that the larger expeditions haven't uncovered yet.
Either way, please understand this wasn't a rash decision, and respect it. I'll miss you all, but this is for the better.
I heard about what happened. I'm sorry I wasn't at the funeral, but I knew I didn't belong there. For awhile now I've realized I don't belong at the castle at all. And not in the way most of you would think... I know you all think that.
I don't mean I belong at home. There's nothing for me at home. I'll simply go back to being a [ there is almost a minute's pause after this before the writing continues ] monster.
I've left, and I didn't say goodbye because I knew it would be too difficult. I'm writing to let you know I've gone into the Dead Zone. Only a couple of you know I've been considering this, but I didn't want to make it public until I was sure of what I wanted.
Out here I feel more free. I know I'm not a danger to anybody, and I'm not sick. Even better, I get to explore, which is something I've always wanted. But don't think I'm going to become like the others.
[ another long pause, the ink blot growing until he moves the pen once more ]
I'm not going to lose track of any of you, or forget about you. I'm going to see if I can find something useful for everyone out here. Maybe I can locate a power source that you can use out here. Maybe I can discover something that the larger expeditions haven't uncovered yet.
Either way, please understand this wasn't a rash decision, and respect it. I'll miss you all, but this is for the better.