® .087. this is a test of the emergency freak out broadcasting channel.

[banished_dame]

Right.

So... all the weird dreams've turned out to be real.

That bit where they tell you, well, least from what pieces I can puzzle back together - but they say you forget.

But... I've been - [She's not even sure if she can consider it gone because she wasn't back home, but she certainly wasn't here. Not in the castle.] - away

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[longaevus]

dictated;
You've been to Paradisa before? [ The phrasing sounds a little different to someone who's been on a long loss. And she sounds as if she actually remembers her time here, oh dear

Although sonic? Another friend of The Doctor's, perhaps? ]

[banished_dame]

Yeah. Two years here, there 'bouts. Then I guess I left, now I'm back.

It's not really too clear. Still hazy, bit - I'm not sure how to explain it.

[longaevus]

It's more than most receive if they return. Do you know how long it has been since you were here?

[banished_dame]

The journal says... [She goes flipping back through pages and frowns.]

That doesn't seem right at all. This entry's 'round the end of October. [She keeps flipping pages.]

None of this is me. Well, mean, it's me, but I don't remember any of that. [There's more flipping...]

Alright, here, this bit is 'least familiar that I remember it. It's 'round the time when... oh. [It's easier to let the memories return when she reads about it all.]

Near end of July... maybe... been at least a year that I've been gone from here.

[longaevus]

I found that myself - this is the third time that I've been in Paradisa although I've yet to remember my previous time here.

Do you know anything about what happened to you after you left?

[banished_dame]

Not really. Mean, it feels like I was here then I was living a life in Paris, then I was back here. It's bit jumbled up.

[longaevus]

A consequence of being here. I'm sorry that you've been brought back here.

[banished_dame]

Yeah... but I've been here b'fore and we're not supposed to remember.

I guess... because I didn't really leave, it's different.

[longaevus]

That's certainly one possibility, and a worrying one at that. Most find hope in the fact that we do go home but to know this? It's worrying.

[banished_dame]

It's more than worrying... [Because it happened to her. It's not just something she's heard about.]

[longaevus]

More so than returning without memories?

[banished_dame]

If I didn't have the memories, it'd be like a fresh start. No worrying and I'd be like everyone else.

Now, now I've got to worry if everyone that I've ever watched leave this place -- has actually ever really left it.

[longaevus]

That is a point. It was a concern that some had prior to this, given that we can't truly know.

[banished_dame]

Well, it's a concern of mine now, as well. Seein' as it happened t'me.

[longaevus]

Then you're not alone in that, if it means anything.

[banished_dame]

It does, but it's still not much.

Were you someone the castle tucked away, too?