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[Private]
Oh - Oh God.
I don't know why I didn't think he'd come back here. If I'm back, it was only a matter of time, right? But - I didn't - I didn't think it would be. . .
Be what? It's not soon. It's not like I've only been here a week. It's been months. Months. The castle probably was just running out of things to throw at me. You'd think facing all this stuff with Asuka, facing what I did last time I was here and what I did back home would be enough ---
He doesn't. . .
[some scribbled lines on the page because he can't stop his hand from shaking or write it down. a moments pause before he tosses the pen as hard as he can against the wall. followed by a few other objects. the journal starts recording instead of him writing. So you all are aware, Shinji has an amazing set of lungs.]
IS THIS YOUR IDEA OF BEING FUNNY? HUH!? Haven't I gone through ENOUGH!? NOW THIS? You bring me BACK here after I've already lost EVERYTHING with NOTHING to go back to?! And you can't even let me have the memories of what Asuka and I had here? ONE GOOD THING?
YOU. . .
YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO PEOPLE!
[heavy. . . breathing. . . and. . . then heavy sobbing]
I can't. . . I can't do this - I can't. . .
God. . .Why. . . after all this time?
Why am I still so fucked up?
[/Private]
[ooc: Ah-ahah ;; Uh, if any of his neighbors/passer bys want to have heard him freak out, the castle probably would have been like "LOL NO SOUND PROOF WALLS FOR YOU TODAY!" just to fuck with him. Feel free to mess with the crazy kid.]
Oh - Oh God.
I don't know why I didn't think he'd come back here. If I'm back, it was only a matter of time, right? But - I didn't - I didn't think it would be. . .
Be what? It's not soon. It's not like I've only been here a week. It's been months. Months. The castle probably was just running out of things to throw at me. You'd think facing all this stuff with Asuka, facing what I did last time I was here and what I did back home would be enough ---
He doesn't. . .
[some scribbled lines on the page because he can't stop his hand from shaking or write it down. a moments pause before he tosses the pen as hard as he can against the wall. followed by a few other objects. the journal starts recording instead of him writing. So you all are aware, Shinji has an amazing set of lungs.]
IS THIS YOUR IDEA OF BEING FUNNY? HUH!? Haven't I gone through ENOUGH!? NOW THIS? You bring me BACK here after I've already lost EVERYTHING with NOTHING to go back to?! And you can't even let me have the memories of what Asuka and I had here? ONE GOOD THING?
YOU. . .
YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO PEOPLE!
[heavy. . . breathing. . . and. . . then heavy sobbing]
I can't. . . I can't do this - I can't. . .
God. . .Why. . . after all this time?
Why am I still so fucked up?
[/Private]
[ooc: Ah-ahah ;; Uh, if any of his neighbors/passer bys want to have heard him freak out, the castle probably would have been like "LOL NO SOUND PROOF WALLS FOR YOU TODAY!" just to fuck with him. Feel free to mess with the crazy kid.]