Well its 1:16 in the morning mike is in chicago and fly's out for ireland in the morning. He's gonna be gone 3weeks which isnt that long at all but the more i think about it the more it sux just cause i miss him. But hey i am super happy for him this is an awesome opportunity and it's only 3weeks i mean i am fine with not seeing him for 3weeks not ( Read more... )

It's rainy and storming outside and most people I have found hate it when it storms or rains, but not me I like to watch the lightning, I am not a huge fan of the thunder but hey it's all part of the storm. I would rather have it warm and sunny but storms are awesome to sit and watch. My favorite is heat lightning when it just lightnings no rain or ( Read more... )

Ok this is kinda funny actually its a you had to be there kinda funny but who cares i think its funny. I drove to pentwater the other day to see mike my bf he works at a bar there well anyways I walked in and alot of locals were there and this englishman who drinks wine ther alot. I ordered some food after kissing mike hello and got some water. My ( Read more... )

Today has been an alright day, but for some reason I am not so happy like I usually am. I mean nothing bad happened nothing good really did either it's just been an alright day all around and boring. Usually when I'm bored I start to think alot about my life and everything, which my life isn't bad at all I'm not complaining I'm just having an off ( Read more... )

Ok the other day I told my boyfriend I loved him which doesnt sound like a big deal but if you knew me you would know its a huge deal. I don't get close to people I never tell anyone I love them. I have been told I am emppty inside which is very untrue I have feelings and emotions just like everyone else I just dont express my feelings as much as ( Read more... )

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How do I express how I feel ( Read more... )

I've gotta get out,
get away from this place.
Meet different people,
do different things.
Life's to short to be unhappy,
to be alone and afraid.
I've gotta move on,
to new horizons,
on to open my eyes,
express my emotions.
To do what I want,
when I want.
To be who I am.
I've just gotta get the hell out,
get out of this place.

the other night Mike came over after work and he was upset. He was upset because his friend died and he was crying, it was sad it was nice to see it tho. I mean I didnt want him to be sad or upset but it was nice to see him finally let it all out and express himself. When I saw him crying I didnt know what to do all I could do was hug him and not ( Read more... )