Decided to go with a more positive picture. That is a picture of me with a cup-tray on my head from Wendy's. I got another one of me with a big shmuck grin pointing to a construction cone that I decied to steal. :P ( Read more... )

just feeling numb today. thinking about how the ex has screwed up my life.

just one of those days. I hate this feeling. so draining. so depressing.

puppies. I miss Yadira. Stupid me. I miss being close with somebody. I think that's really it.

our driver that got mugged sometime last week, today some customer was mad that his order took so long, so he took his pizza and threw it to the ground and then kicked the driver. This wasn't even the ghetto, is one of the nicest neighborhoods we goto! Some people. Over pizza! I'm hoping the guy was drunk or something. If not God needs to use his ( Read more... )

I feel sorry for her and want to believe her... but I know that she's lying and just playing games. and it pisses me off. Why can't she just tell the truth? It hurts so fucking much. I just want to know what the hell is going on, i don't care how bad it is, just don't fucking lie to me about it ( Read more... )

today I confronted the ex about a bunch of lies, and stuff about child support, blah blah blah. Then she was talking to me about her ex... that he's calling her and still saying that he loves her but it's a bad time... and how I dumped her 6 months into the relationship... and she told me that she still loves me ( Read more... )

She called to ask about Taten's b-day party and what we were going to do... and we started talking about the whole child-support thing. she's like, they would just take only $200-$250 a month possibly and I told her that that would ruin me. and I yelled it at her, then I got into the whole thing where I shouldn't have to take care of Teris, and ( Read more... )

The ex's B/F dumped her, so now she's trying to guilt-trip me. Or everybody. I don't know. Of course I feel sorry for her, but I'm keeping strong. I was SO close to telling her off, telling her WHY he dumped her... and why no guy is gonna stay with her unless he's stupid or abusive or has a low self-esteem. Which will lead to 3 things: 1. The guy ( Read more... )

I went over to my neighbor/freinds house after work, and he said that he heard that Amber was going to surprise me by sending me papers for child-support. Somebody brought that up at work... and brought up a good point. I don't know if this works only if you were married, but if she left ME, then i shouldn't have to pay child-support. Make sense? ( Read more... )

woke up feeling like crap... no energy. Had some funky dreams. I was trying to get jiggy with one of my friend's f*** buddies... then like we were going over this lake just holding on to these polls that were going along very unsafely across like a production line... the one where you have all those metal roller-bars. Anyways... weird ( Read more... )

and for some reason today I'm feeling anxious. Thinking about my ex's life... how she was abused and just... a horrible life that would make somebody want to kill themselves over. Which she's attempted a few times. Yes I have a heart and I care for her. Yet instead of being with her in my dreams, I'm not.. I push her away. Which is good. I believe ( Read more... )