What was my most recent visit like? I, expecting and anticipating the commentary of what was off or wrong about my home and children spent two hours cleaning. This interrupted the daily flow of my work and made me feel removed and burdened. I left after that cleaning to pick up a birthday cake for my son's party the next day. I left a spotless ( Read more... )

Today I woke up dreading the idea of returning to work from a vacation, albeit a somewhat relaxing yet slightly annoying over abundance of in laws, as usual.

It seems the only vacations we take these days are imposed upon me and thus include at least 9 other people besides my immediate family. Sometimes that makes it more fun, often it makes it ( Read more... )

Pop quiz: What does my mother say when I regularly call her on Tuesdays, but did not call last Tuesday because she had just left a weekend at my home Monday morning, and instead waited 8, rather than 7 days to call? "I guess when I visit I don't get a phone call." WTF

I think I actually made this phone call out of fear. I was having a relatively ( Read more... )

I have been told many things; I should be a lawyer because I was good at Model Judiciary. I should be a doctor because I was good at Chemistry and for some reason loved watching the surgical videos on some cable network we had at the beach house. I should be a writer because I was great at advanced literature and composition....and I have journaled ( Read more... )

Pretty sure the title captures the gist of this post....but I will say this "back and forth" between emotion and reason has been brewing for several decades. I am writing this post because I am angry and annoyed that my mother infiltrated MY happy life with her bullshit today. Again. I have been making a lot of good progress with her through ( Read more... )

Pretty sure the title captures the gist of this post....but I will say this "back and forth" between emotion and reason has been brewing for several decades. I am writing this post because I am angry and annoyed that my mother infiltrated MY happy life with her bullshit today. Again. I have been making a lot of good progress with her through ( Read more... )

I have heard plenty of people my age, late 30’s with kids, say they don’t feel like adults and I used to be in the same mindset until my dad died. I now feel fully responsible for my life, older than I should, fearful of health issues I will hopefully never own because I take care of myself and exercise daily but sometimes genetics are just a bitch ( Read more... )

There’s such a fine line between perfect and gasping for air....thankful for my memories and training as a psychologist but nothing makes this easy or OK

Dad I miss you so much and mom doesn’t want me to send texts to your phone because it makes her sad, so I hope you hear me and hope you’re happy.
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My favorite is missing and nothing feels normal....my first baby, Brody, my 50 lb muscular bundle of kisses and love, has been dropped off at boarding so we can go on a family vacation that nearly drove me over the edge last year with just one kid. Now there is an additional newborn, and while things are generally under control at home, this is ( Read more... )